Thank you reaching out to us! It takes a lot of strength and I am very proud of you.
Firstly, you should never feel guilty for being anxious or depressed. It's completely normal, which is why you were diagnosed.
I used to have the same issues as you. I had a cute dog, was staying in nice house, was studying something I loved, and yet I was still blue and struggling. I had no idea why and I would end up making myself MORE depressed because I would feel guilty for being sad. I talked to one of my friends at the time about it, and he said something that changed me. He said "Anxiety doesn't use logic or reason. It doesn't choose who it wants to affect depending on how positive or negative their life is, it takes who it wants."
You have to remember that none of this is your fault and you have nothing to be guilty about. I would recommend that you write out your feelings in a journal or something or maybe seek some therapy to see if you can find the root of the issue that may be triggering these feelings. It might become obvious when everything is laid out in front of you.
I definately agree with Nevermind_me, hobbies are a fantastic distraction. 4 years ago I moved away from all family and became completely alone (my choice, but it is still not easy) and felt suddenly overwhelmed. I am a massive videogame lover and joined one community of a new game coming out that I thought I might like. Cut to now and I am in hundreds of communities and have made more amazing friends than you can count. Hobbies can be a fantastic distraction, and whenever I am having a rough day or a panic attack or whatever I will go and watch a stream of this game and suddenly I am in a whole new dimension where my problems are nonexistant. I also get this through reading and writing, do you have anything that really interests you? maybe we here at the forums can help you find something to help calm the anxiety.
Wishing for the best for you, be sure to keep us updated when you feel comfortable.
