Dear Nataya
I see you have made a few posts already but I still want to welcome you to Beyond Blue.
It is a little difficult to answer you as I do not know how long you have been (presumably) depressed and what other help you have such as family and friends. It would really be great if you could tell us a little more about yourself.
In the meantime I can positively assure you that it is worth your time and energy to work on getting well. Sometimes we seem to make no progress for a while and the best we can see is that we have not gone backwards. That is a huge positive.
How long have you been on medication? It can take up to several months for medication to be fully effective. It will not cure your illness but it is intended to help you cope better while you learn strategies for managing.
Another question. How long have you been involved with this support group? Again they are not able to 'cure' you. They are there to support and help you learn, be a shoulder to cry on at times, remind you how far you have already travelled and hold you hand (metaphorically) when the day gets too dark. Trust them as far as possible and say your truths. No one is going to reprimand you for stating your feelings. Others may have a different viewpoint and are equally entitled to state this.
It is important to understand that others see things in you that you cannot yet see. I have been told for months by my psych that I am capable of managing, but I cannot see it properly. Even saying that shows that part of me agrees with him, but I am still a little afraid to stand on my own.
It is not an easy or short road. I hope this does not disappoint you too much. You will need friends, courage and love to get going to become whole and healthy.
Can you talk about speaking freely privately with one of your team or the psych when he/she arrives? This is vital for your well-being.
Hold on there and write in again. I hope we can offer you more support and suggestions when we know more about you.
Warm regards
Mary
