All new and too much

[Casxx]

Hi

Since I was 14 I have had mild anxiety and have been able to cope with counselling. However, recently my anxiety became crippling. Every morning I wake up earlier then my alarm feeling anxious. I have constant worrying all day and I feel so tired all the time. I have been doing mindfulness meditation, eating healthy, taking walks when I can and journalling. I have an appointment with a physiologist, but that isn't for another 10 days.

I went to the doctors who has put me on medication and found out that I also have depression. As I have some other symptoms like not enjoying anything, crying and feeling hopeless. It scares me so bad. Will I ever feel hope and happy again?

Even now my family have come and visited me and I am here writing this so I don't cry in front of my niece and nephew instead of enjoying the time with them.

I feel like I can't go a day without talking to someone about this, like beyond blue, headspace or even lifeline.

I feel so scared, alone, tired and hopeless.

[Doolhof]

Hi Casxx,

Sharing, writing and talking about how you are feeling are all valuable tools to use to help you work out and sort your feelings and emotions.

It is good you have been to a Dr for a diagnosis. For me, I have found it helpful to know the conditions I am dealing with. I borrow books form the library and Google ways of coping with my depression, stress, anxiety and Borderline Personality Disorder. The more I read the more I understand.

Beyond Blue also have a resource section on their web site. They are able to post out information to you. You could also use the Beyond Blue phone line as well as the Lifeline one. I have been known to use both in the same day when I am struggling.

It can be hard feeling vulnerable in front of family and friends, sounds like your family is trying to be supportive. Maybe you could just explain to your niece and nephew that sometimes you feel unwell and it makes you want to cry, but you will be okay and it is nothing they need to be scared of. (Depending on their age)

Beyond Blue website also has suggestions on how people can help someone with depression and anxiety. You might like to check that out.

Please know you are not alone here. Many people understand what you are experiencing.

Life does not always have to be tough. There can be moments each day that are positive and pleasant.

Maybe create a page in your journal to write 3 things each day you are grateful for. It might be having a shower, a cup of coffee hearing a bird sing.

Hope some of this helps.

Wishing you well on your journey to re-finding more hope!

Cheers from Dools

[giggles]

Hi Cassxx

you appear to be doing some of the mindful things but are they working for you?

When l was like this l would do art and not intention piece like say a flower. I put on music and basically go for it. The reason l am suggesting this too you is because the after effects can and are emotionally rewarding.

Without consciously thinking an answer can come too you. Even a doodle.

All the best

Giggles,

by the way l now play the piano. I bet anything you are talented in an area yet to be discovered or for all l know you are already.

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[Casxx]

Hi

Thank you for your reply. I talked to my family, even cried. My niece came up and hugged me she is 3.

I have been writing things into my journal that I am grateful for however I was trying to do five a day which was a struggle. I am now only do 1-3.

Giggles the mindfulness helps with my anxiety and sleep. I am going to try colouring in. Not the best artist.

Thank you for replying.