10 Things I Hate About Depression

[Sparkles183]

1) I hate the way I am crying inside and I do not know when I will stop.

2) I hate the person who I have become and I am not the person I used to be.

3) I hate that I feel I no longer have purpose in life and my goals is no longer the same.

4) I hate the fact no matter what treatment I try everything seems to get worse.

5) I hate it when the people around me rejects and abandons me when I need them most.

6) I hate that I have been bullied by professional’s the people who I supposed to trust most.

7) I hate the last 6 months of my life it has relay been hell

😎 I hate the fact that I am haunted by the images and thoughts of self-harm and suicide on a regular bases although I can control the urges and know I never do it.

9) I hate that I am alone in this fight and no one is with me.

10) But most of all I hate the fact that I cannot longer fight this on my own and I need all the help I can get.....

[Mel__F]

Hi pdent, strange world I wonder when we walk down the street and see so many faces, and how many struggle with life, so sad and each with there own silent story, so glad I found beyond blue, have a good day

[Mel__F]

Great words sparkles, love reading all your posts,and thank you

[Sparkles183]

Hi Mel

Thank you for your kind words.

I am so glad to hear you are getting the help and encouragement  you need from these forums.

Take Care and stay strong

Sparkles

[white knight]

Hi Sparkles,

Very nice comments.  And also wonderful comments made to BB also in your appreciation. You really are a beautiful person and so glad you like it here on this forum.

Tony WK

[Mel__F]

Hi sparkles going off line for a while, lost and sad have good weekend xx

[Sparkles183]

Hi Mel

I hope you feel better soon good luck with your GP appointment I hope all goes well. Sending you a big Hug.

Sparkles

[asliverofhope]

This list is so real and so true it scared me.

#3 is the exact feelings I have right now. I just wish I could make others understand depression like you do and this list shows it.

It's like every single goal I have, I lack the passion and drive I know I should have and desperately want.

[Sparkles183]

Hi asliverofhope

Welcome to the forums.

Unfortunately it is hard to find someone to understand depression, the people  here has either been through it or they are struggling with depression  at the moment and they are also very non-judgmental so please feel free to keep posting and let us know what you are going through if you feel comfortable.

I totally understand I too feel like I lack passion and drive for every single one of my goals I feel like I am no longer the same person.

Although I have been thinking this past week. If I don’t pursue them goals will I regret it later on in life? I don’t know relay it is something I have to deal with.

I am no longer going to let this awful thing beat me (although I feel like it already has at times) but I want to beat depression. And if that means if I have to go out and do things and pursue my life long dreams and goals despite that I am feeling lack of enthusiasm, passion and drive and despite how hard it may be I will do it.

I am not saying it is the right thing to do but it is just something that I have been thinking lately.

Let us know how you are going and remember we are here for you and you are not alone.

Sparkles