This is probably gonna be another dramatic post so I'll try to keep it canned as possible.
But yeah I just can't comprehend on what we're supposed to be doing here anymore, like everyone seems to be so absorbed into their own generalisation's & opinion's about why we're here & what our purpose of existence is, however in a grand of it, i just dont really see any reason to being here at all, i think its completely arbitrary.
Are we really just meant to go to work make money, pay bills, get trapped in debt & do it all over again, is that really what this is all about, because thats what it seems to be, & whats even more bizarre is how alot of people are cool with it, you know we go throught all this struggle, all this heartache, all this sacrifice just to lose it in the end, like how on earth does that make any sense, its like a herd mentality that just goes & does whatever everybody else's is doing without question & i really have a hard time living abide that.
How does anybody go on being told what to do their entire lives & act like nothing's up, i really dont get people like that i absolutely dont, its like everybody's living in their own inner world's, fooling themselves as much as they can to avoid confrontations which i can understand, but i just dont relate to many, like those who wanna get married, those who "want" kids, those who wanna build a career or job is there really a difference, retiring to preservation age, i just dont see the point in any of these tradition's, at the end of the day they all made up mentally & imposed by others.
We trade so much time chasing finite things rather than focusing on what aligns us, im not saying dont try & make connections, but we only live long right which is taken up more by survival mode, if you think things couldn't be more dystopian enough just wait, everyone like's to be grandiose about the future acting all confident about it, but looking at things now just doesnt seem so promising & I wouldn't count on hope for that.
Nothing feels the same anymore, everythings feels so individualised where social media has disconnected us more than connected, we were fine without it after all these years, now all of the sudden we gotten so used to believing that we need it now, its like we digging our own trench & all we seem to do is say, oh well we cant control it, well alright then.
Just so sick of coping, distracting, hoping, slaving, how does anybody not get tired of this, for real you know, anyway thats all for today.
