OK - that's my polite version!
Really struggling. Am getting Counselling and she is great, I also have a peer support worker who is amazing.
I had so much hopes for this Xmas. I had invited my kids and spent all my dole money on a big feed. For the first time since I have been back in SA I invited people over, it was the first time I had cooked (something I used to love to do), the first time I showered and dressed up.
The ones who showed turned up two hours late, then left me with a ten year old (whose mother didn't come because she has two younger ones and was stressed out - I get that). My kids were here for just under an hour. Much wasted food and I had to entertain a ten year old for two hours until she was picked up.
Today is New Years' Eve. I got an email from Seek about a job. I rang and the woman actually called me back on her way home from work! Sorry to all the vegetarians and vegans, but this was a job in a butcher shop. This is work I have done before and I absolutely love it. I have an interview on Tuesday - very excited. Wanted to share.....
My Mother's response "Are you sure you are up for this?"
My Father's response "Oh no....Well, you certainly aren't over-selling yourself"
Sorry - just had to vent as I now feel so useless and stupid for thinking this was a good thing. There will never be a good thing.
Thanks for listening
