Dear MM and Grandy~
You build me up too much, and fail to build yourselves up - which is a pity. When you consider your circumstances, some people would just shrink onto themselves and not react, not appreciate others, not make efforts, just go into a sort of maintenance mode.
You don't do that, you see others and show appreciation, interact, and both of you from time to time have offered me your help.
Actually you give it already, does not matter if it is cleaning s**t off a toilet, or having to get candy from someone else becuse the machine is off-limits, I look at you and hope that I would conduct myself as well.
Can I talk about windows for a minute? This is just me, others will feel quite different. When outside the building they seemed to me to be almost prison bars, enclosing a restricted world I was about to join, and I guess in a way they were.
Inside, standing looking out, seeing the hectic life, traffic, pedestrians, and all they were a protection, a barrier enclosing a fragment of peace, preventing overwhelming influences finding me.
I'm not saying psych wards are all good, but sometimes they do help.
Croix
