Thanks for the reference, I've Mandela's book here somewhere, I'll dig it up. Thanks also for the suggestion for the new thread, I was unsure if as a non-newbie I should.
I must say I find your eyes in your latest incarnation a trifle disconcerting, I know Audrey was supposed to be sweetie, oozing international goodwill, but those eyes bore in, almost makes me feel guilty on principal.
Talking of feeling guilty, have I been admonished re thread - by someone other than you?
Hi Croix (and anyone else reading),
I guess this will be a chatty post to continue the conversation that we were having on another thread.
Bear in mind the last time that I read Nausea must have been at least a few years ago, my memory of some of the details is a little hazy. I'm not sure if Anny was necessarily the most "real" as you put it but I think she had a different way of dealing with her "existence" than Roquentin. Anny looked to others for her own identity. Roquentin did the same at one stage in his life but was looking for something else beyond being defined by his relationships with other people, etc.
Thanks for the Endgame suggestion. I might look it up one day and see what I think. It sounds like a gateway play to Waiting for Godot- judging by your comments ha, ha.
See, that's the thing about Del Rey, I'm not even sure if she's necessarily aiming for so-called "authenticity." I think she creates art, an outlet and a mood (which is fine with me). Besides, in any sort of song or piece, there's bound to be a degree of performance/showmanship (or "inauthenticity") so "authenticity" (or lack thereof) doesn't bother me very much.
Yes, I agree with you that SS is a sad song but the title of the song contains the word "sad(ness)" so she does give fair warning. In saying that, sad songs do have a profound effect on you- they really eat at you, don't they?
As you said so yourself, it's part of your PTSD legacy so sad songs and you don't mix- that's understandable and fair enough. I think it's probably a good idea to keep away from any sad pieces or songs for the sake of your mental health. They're clearly very upsetting and even distressing for you...Kanga's Honey mention was a bit too close to home for you.
I (obviously) don't mind sad songs. I mean, music is meant to reflect human feelings so happy and sad songs- plus everything in between- so both have a place in my eyes (ears).
I just had a listen to La Vie En Rose as per your recommendation. Piaf was certainly very talented and that song definitely chokes you up. I have no idea what she's singing about but you don't need to speak French to feel her melancholy. Power of music to transcend all language barriers, huh?
Hope you're having a good night. I'm going to get ready now to head out with some friends in a bit.
My dear Croix;
You and I haven't really exchanged much of late have we? I'm missing that.
I'm glad Mandella resonates with you as his quote helped me find courage to shine. (Just as you did) Admittedly though, it did take a few times reading it to sink in.
As for Audrey's eyes, I've had people tell me that since I can remember. I have blue eyes too which can omit a sky blue fluidity in the right light...a deep ocean they tell me. For some it's disconcerting, for others it draws in like a magnet.
Croix, can you elaborate on;
'Talking of feeling guilty, have I been admonished re thread - by someone other than you?'
I'm not sure what you mean I'm sorry. You haven't done anything wrong. I'm assuming you mean 'our thread'?? Oh ok...does this have to do with a 'lost post'? If it does, all's well ok. Don't worry..
How's things going on the CC front? So looking forward to knowing your name. (If you want to of course) And, maybe meeting at our get-together soon. I want to bear-hug everyone! Your presence as a peer supporter will feed the souls of many for yrs to come, I have no doubt.
Your affection is accepted and sent back 10 fold...
You correctly divined the reason for my question, however I took a direct approach to the matter and am now quite happy.
I'm so pleased for you, the whole tenor of your speech, your new energy, the works - its marvelous; X-rated I hope.
Have a listen to Paolo Conte's - Via Con Me - (the version uploaded by cannella17) - I thought of it just then & for me it's mood fits the bill.
Yes I've missed our quick interaction, but every time I think that I also think that you are outside this microcosm into a larger universe - which is exactly as it should be, not abandoning this, but a balance.
Forgive me for being impertinent however I had thought you were chafing to grow and being a little 'crushed' as a result, with up-down swings a symptom. After all when a butterfly is born its wings are crumpled and soggy, outside the confines of the cocoon they unfold to their rightful glory.
Your problem with the other thread was not lack of cat-herding skills, you did not at the time have anything to say and were therefor not leading by example - at which you shine
On that other front, I've tasks which are a little awkward as first responses rely upon speed and I've not been in a position to cover the specific areas set out, so I've used my own judgment accordingly. No point in 'me too' entries where I've nothing new to say. I'm glad to say I'm being stretched & look forward to guidance.
You really do have all my affecton
Survived my piano joke? You might like to read me ramble
La Vie en Rose, as I remember, is a song praising a love, though I think the lover was no longer & Édith was looking back with fond, though melancholy, memory – hence the rose colored glasses. Full of warmth
If you look at something I said to Corny you’ll see (if you haven’t nosed already) I have to eat my words about sad – I really enjoyed Unsent Letter, blue though it was – it resonated – so I guess I’m not musically crippled after all. It did seem more genuine - I know, that’s just me
I doubt you’ll like Endgame – I only mentioned it as a test for YouTube. No loss either way
I did have an amazing stroke of luck
There was a film I saw about 15 years ago called Mostly Martha. It was German with English subtitles and the plot is only so-so – though I of course liked it. It was about a driven female chef changing her life to adopt a niece whilst becoming entwined with a jazz-loving sous-chef. A nice happy romance with a nice happy ending – ahh lovley
But the music – it really hit a chord (ouch) with me
Keith Jarrett, Steve Reich, Peter Blegvad, David Darling, Arvo Pärt, Louis Prima, Dean Martin, Paolo Conte, Lucio Dalla. (Full list on Wikipedia)
It so exactly hit the scenes in the movie, and even a lightweight like Dean Martin belonged
Anyway I found a second-hand copy cheap on eBay & now I’m waiting with a grin
I just realized that I’ve not asked you about your film preferences, I’d be interested to know, though I expect you might like deep – I suspect I’m a bubblehead
We were talking about Nausea, which led on to philosophy. I actually did that as a subject, around the late 60’s, for a while at UniNSW, but that was before things changed and I went elsewhere
I never completed it. It was far too dry anyway – who wants to know what David Hume thought about miracles anyway, even if I do agree. (We concur with you about the Almighty BTW)
Have you heard of Lake Wobegon? It’s the one religious show I find palatable, mainly because it does not take itself seriously – anyone who can think up a church called Our Lady of Perpetual Responsibility can’t be all bad
Anyway what I do find is I like my philosophy wrapped in layers of candy, or at least wrapped in something. A good example being Blade Runner where Ridley Scott’s world-view sets thoughts of what it is to be human, slavery and the possibility of change in a unique manner
I hope harsh endurance has flashes of bright