Worried

[Rainshaddow]

Hi , new to this , don't know what to expect , suffer from anxiety and depression and C-PTSD , live alone out in rural Aus and just wanted to talk , some form of contact ,

[Rainshaddow]

Kitty I was just reading up on what AME's and LAME's are and do for a job , you keep us safe in aircraft while we all fly around the place , holidays , jobs etc , it's quite a responsibility , how cool 😎 I like it 👍yes mulberries are great , a family member of mine had a mullbery bush/tree at their house , taste great but stain fingers and mouth , yes I like them too ,

[Kitty1991]

Hey Rainshaddow how are you travelling? Have you been able to see a doctor yet about your meds? I hope you get something to help you soon. I have just been super lazy the last 3 days, I wake up have a cuppa and go back to bed until I have to leave for work. Finding it really hard to have an motivation to do anything. It funny I spend most of my time in bed and yet I am exhausted 😴.

Any luck with the job hunt?

[Rainshaddow]

Hi Kitty , I'm doing ok , better today , must be on the upward climb of the rollercoaster , booked in with dr , not sure what to do as yet with this medication thing ,

Applied for more jobs today in mining , also chance of 2 local town jobs , and on track for a job with CBH for harvest time , bumper crop in WA this year ,

How come you have no motivation ? Winter time thing ?

How are things going with your man ?

How is work ?

Have you heard of kefir ? Milky yoghurty type drink , great for our gut and also mental health , can buy it or grow it , I'm trying it ,

Cold and raining , 🌧️ here tonight , thunder and lightning ⚡ too , brrrr ,

I have Indian flute music on , it's so relaxing , 👍

[Rainshaddow]

Bit of news , start driving tanker truck Monday , just casual but it's a job ,

[Kitty1991]

Hey Rainshaddow congratulations on the job 😀, even if it is casual it is better than nothing. You must be really happy to have gotten something. Do you feel alright about the job, keen or anxious?
I don’t know why I have no motivation, I think I am just tired especially with the night shifts. Can easily sleep all day.
Things are much better with my man, his working and enjoying it so far which is good.
I like kefir, didn’t know it was good for mental health might start drinking it again.

[Rainshaddow]

Hi Kitty , I would rather it was a full time permanent job but yes it's better than nothing and it's a start , easier to find a job when you have a job right , I feel ok about the job , bit nervous but to be expected I guess , always nervous to be honest , anxiety is like that eh . Oh yes of course , the night shift would sap your energy levels totally , glad your man has found a job so fast , that's excellent news , fingers crossed he continues to enjoy working and contributing to the household . Yes kefir does have an effect on our moods as we have brain type material in our stomachs and our brains and stomachs communicate via the Vegas nerve , if our gut is not healthy then our mental health can suffer , I watched a doco called trust me I'm a doctor with Michael Mosley , it was on SBS , cold and raining here today , started 30 seconds after I hung my washing out to dry 🌧️🤔

[Kitty1991]

Hey Rainshaddow, don’t you hate when you hang your washing out and it’s starts raining 🌧😀. I will watch that documentary, it sounds interesting.

How are you going with the new job Rainshaddow? Are you liking it? How’s your anxiety going?

It has been pretty quiet for me since we last spoke which is good 😃

[Rainshaddow]

Hi Kitty how are you going? I'm ok ish I guess , today was an ok day , new job is a bit chaotic learning wise , a bit all over the place as they are not organised at all , which really rattles me , my anxiety levels rise and then I find it really hard to learn and retain new information , damn anxiety ! I'm up n day day in day out . Still trying for the mines , still a chance to get back to the mine I used to work at 🤞

Thats great news that things are quiet for you , your anxiety levels must be lower , how's your medication , partner , Job , going ?

[Kitty1991]

Hey Rainshaddow 😀. It would be really hard with your anxiety if they aren’t organised. Lack of organisation makes me panic sometimes. I am really struggling at work atm. Majority of the people I work with are anti-vax’s, anti-lockdown and really negative to work with. So every time I go to work I just want to go home, I find it really hard to work with such negativity and constant conspiracy theories. It makes me really unmotivated and drained I guess. Which in turn makes me feel really lazy, but I just can not be bothered to show any interest. I feel like I should take some leave, but i would be returning to the same situation when I come back to work.

My partner is enjoying his new work, which is great. It is strange though, I needed him to get a job and contribute to the relationship, but now that he is working during the day and I work at night, I really miss him and I am miserable at home when he is not there. I think I will get use to it though.
How are you going with the tablet from the library? Enjoying it?

Talk soon

[Rainshaddow]

Hi Kitty , your workplace sounds like a difficult environment to work in kitty , it's hard enough without the negativity and conspiracy theories and being anti Vax and anti lockdown , iny option the vaccination is the only way to move forward for us all , they sound a little childish , gossip , conspiracy theories in a workplace can be very destructive to other employees , I really hope things improve there for you kitty , I wish I had an answer to it all , I can understand how it can be draining to the point of not showing any interest , it's understandable kitty , I hope things improve soon for you at work , please know that you can tell me about this stuff anytime you need to vent . Yes I can understand how you would be missing your partner now he is working , Such a hard thing to do , one on nights and one on days , but you can look forward to your days off together which will make it a bit more exciting , what's that saying , absence makes the heart grow fonder , it may also be that you are missing his presence and emotional support ? I am sure things will adjust and fall into place 🤞 Glad he is enjoying his work and he is now contributing to the household and in turn the relationship , it may help improve a lot of things , and always best to have 2 incomes coming in , life ain't cheap .

I took the tablet back to the library early , I wasn't really using it and it kept doing things I couldn't understand , it was ok but I don't think I will buy one . Talk soon kitty 😁