worried about my capabilities

[tulpa]

hello again I haven't been around the forums for a while. I seem to be worrying more and more about my level of intelligence, sometimes I think I'm the biggest idiot on earth and everyone is too nice to tell me, other times I feel like I'm a genius and that if I wasn't apathetic there would be nothing I can't do. I can't understand it I seem to swing from sheer arrogance and absolute certainty in my superiority to a self loathing idiot, never in between. Is this some kind of narcissism?

[Narniakid]

Hey tulpa, thank you for your post!

Is there something or someone that triggers these swings? Quite often our environment plays a significant role in what we think of ourselves, particularly in school.

These swings are a symptoms of multiple personality disorder, however I wouldn't jump to conclusions without a diagnosis from a professional or your GP. The fact that you've picked up on your mood swings yourself is a good sign. I'd definitely seek a professional opinion just to be safe.

Crystal

[tulpa]

Usually when i feel bad its due to something ive done wrong even something small or just memories of past failures. When i get into an argument however im absolutely convinced im right and more intelligent than others.

[flower_girl1]

Hey Tulpa, 

 I get like this sometimes. I think I look down on ppl mostly when they are cruel or uncaring, because I am never like that, and I kind of judge them for not being as good as me at that. But when I screw up, especially if it was something I am certainly not easy on myself. I recently was taught a bit about the four main personality types. Dominant, sociable, amiable and analytical. When I read the description of amiable it was like finding my actual star sign. Google it, it's interesting. I'm amiable, it means I'm more focused on helping people I'm shy and introverted and want to feel safe.

flower girl