Violent attack from woman leaving me terrified

[Blaire]

Hey so I have adhd im outgoing and energetic as ever and nice as ever I usually get along with most of society but like one night when I was trying too get past all these people a woman got angry about everything I did she wouldnt leave me alone the guy who helped me got injured I was left with worst broken arm ever, i was thrown and he saved my life just in time she found me like I thought at hospital I ended up emotionally a mess and in mental ward im embarressed about it but I’m now just scared I have security gaurds in shops watch me as I go too bathroom it’s so nice I wish I could have one with me everytime I go somewhere like if I had the money I’d have my sons entire footy team wearing security uniforms and wearing tasers and big bats just incase I told them and showed them photos I adore those boys im in a moon boot too 

[Psychdiaries2]

Hello there,

Welcome to the forums, we're glad you are here and trust our community.

I'm sorry to hear about the attack, I can only imagine how distressing all of this must be. I hope your arm recovers smoothly. 

It sounds like you are feeling very frightened right now and that is understandable and ok to feel this way given what you are going through. Have you tried speaking to a counsellor about this? I am sure they can guide you on your anxious thoughts and feelings and help you eventually to feel more comfortable going out in future. Here is the link for the BeyondBlue chat service and phone number: https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/talk-to-a-counsellor

Wishing you recovery and that things may feel a bit lighter soon. Take care 💙

[Croix]

Dear Blaire~

I'd like to join Psychdiaries2 in welcoming you here to the forum. Being assaulted, injured  and helpless is a huge incident in your life and as you recognize the trauma is something that can change the whole way you look and behave. Psychdiaries2 is quite correct in suggesting you have professional help to bring you fears into proportion.

Being in a psych ward after your expereice is nothing to worry about at all, it is sensible to seek assistance. 

I also feel sorry for the man that came to help you, as he was injured too - I hope not too seriously. I guess it goes to show there some very dangerous peple in the world, but ones that try to step in and protect as well

Seeing threats afterwards is only human, however it would be a shame if it permanently made you suspicious of everyone and changed what you did in life. 

One other tihng you might consider is emailing htat nice cop and asking  advice about what are the sensible things you can do to stop it happening again. I don't necessarily meand self-defense classes, but more like being accompanied when you can, changing your routes to go by different areas, being mindful of the time of day and so on. I'm sure she would have better suggestions than me.

I hope your injuries heal quickly and best wishes for your forthcoming marriage

Croix

[Blaire]

Hey i appreciate your reply it was lovely i am on the mend i get my boot off in a week and my arm is being looked at in fracture clinic again at end of month im stable again besides being afraid too be alone so I have support workers and I get security gaurds near me in some shopping centres they are aware it’s really lovely I have a guy who’s supporting me with having them call police as the woman who did it is on the police website he told me as I was there yesterday i couldn’t believe it so many ppl were there that night not one has come forward with a report or too back me up but I haven’t seen any of the small group that helped me or I’d talk too them again and see how they got on getting too hospital cause I know they were gunna go there too he was gunna come in ambulance i was happy too share he was stabbed the guy who helped support my arm but the ambo said call another one but I did try look for them when I got there. Im now gunna be seen for some serapax im use too being on it i feel safe on it from a private clinic where they have gaurds at door and there aware of it too 

it’s first time ive been scared too be alone in a public place ever and I was just trying too get home for my mums birthday safely I have had no issues with buses I’ll try again one day dunno when I’d love too be able too have my own security gaurd come with me i even got a worker saying she can kick high and would kick butt for me she did Muay Thai so I feel safe wiyh her this chick was huge

the bruise she left on me was massive I need mri now hopefully all goes well I am having breast surgery soon I didn’t need this and just suffered a misscarriage too it’s bullshit then the night it happened i got too hospital and walked upto front desk and the lady told me too fukoff so I told security they went angry so I hope shes gone and the stupid other woman who tried too put me on a bus home in the dark when thats how this incident happend she might aswell have known the chick and just helped do it or finish me off like the cops said she came too hospital too do I said I didn’t know I got no idea shes bad news and counsellor I spoke too this morning said I didn’t need too nor deserved that kind of treatment considering I was gunna work in a rehab clinic but why would I bother now if I got other health staff talking too me like that if u get what im saying Thankgod I can rely on police and security too act normal and other parts of the hospital but thank Christ my man my husband too be is moving us too another state he said I’d be ok if I saw her again I did see her again I survived but I saw someone else that night near a shopping centre I frequent for my drs and medication and she was rude but didn’t hurt or stop too help some woman hey and yeh mainly it sux but men sometimes seem too be a lot more helpful and I ain’t anything special I cut my own fringe lol my man loves it but I dunno if other ppl do they say the ones around me they do he and mum said stop cutting it I have but it’s growing really slowly anyways i appreciate your msg back im getting there I’ll be going too work wiyh him and I can do haircuts there so im stoked yayness 

[Croix]

Dear Blaire~

Well I'm glad the boot will be off soon and your fracture is healing, before long you will be fit again. Sadly it might take a little longer before you have your old confidence back. 

At the moment I quite understand you wanting a bodyguard of some sort, however it is probably the councilor who has the job of helping you build your confidence so you are no longer afraid.  While I'd expect it will have changed you a little so maybe you will be more wary but hopefully the fear will be gone.

in my old job I was assaulted to the extent I had to go to hospital, however it simply made me less casual and more wary, however that was probably a good way to be anyway. And as you have found out some people will step up and help, even if many just stand around like sheep.

Expecting  you to go home on a bus after dark, considering what happens, shows a person who simply does not think or care. It would be a pity if you gave up your own plans to work in a rehab clinic just because the heath system has some duds in it, you would be one of the good and understanding ones to balance things out.

Maybe you won't find the people that helped you, my motto is if you  can't return a favor pass it on.

I hope your husband to be likes your fringe, and that you are looking forward to going interstate.

Take care of yourself and good luck with the breast surgery

Croix

[Blaire]

Thats really nice of you too say all that stuff ive been wanting too volunteer in a lifeline store locally they said yes so im going too help till I learn again how too drive it’s been a while my partner wants me too learn manual so I can come away with him for work im getting it sorted im pretty excited about it I spoke with him he is good and im doing good I can rely on people supporting me and the ones who do care certainly show it and not screw up big time cause I never usually forget it and move on that easily but Thankgod I can laugh a lil with my partner about stuff and others cause I’d rather do that than cry over it all cause I use too do this and rely on medication too stop it but I’m doing well with walking it’s keeping me happy I just tend too get bit shakey talking about it im more scared off than anything I don’t wanna go near buses ever again I’ll probably do it with my partner when hes home and talk wiyh pyschiatrist cause I don’t see any counsellors anymore I have one who works as support worker for me so shes great no need for anyone too be paid extra and I relyed heavily on my pyschiatrist too treat me for my adhd so I’ll be seeing them about this cause cbd stuff doesn’t work for me as it caused what happened looking for some for adhd and my broken wrist with screws or pins was caused from it as I crashed bicycle from it so it’s way too dangerous and police know it’s why it probably happened cause I didn’t wanna go and get it I changed my mind i got no idea but I don’t judge or throw judgement anyones way in regards too things that happen im leaving the entire situation behind me as best I can 

take care

[Croix]

Dear Blaire~

You sound a pretty sensible person and make some good moves. I've volunteered for Lifeline assisting people that had been bereaved and the organisation in my state was excellent to be with, with a big range of jobs from shops to locating missing persons. I hope you find it a good expereince too.

One of the strengths of my own partnership is there is a lot of laughter, even after we have had an argument. It is marvelous as laughing together seems to melt away any dispute or bad expereince. So I'm very pleased to hear you laugh with your husband to be too, I think it is a recipe for and good permanent partnership.

I think he is right to suggest you get a manual license if you want to do it. It is surprising the number times you need to borrow a manual car or use your partner's. It gives you more options and if you can drive an automatic already the extra is not that hard - just take your time and accept you may make mistakes as you learn. I'm sure you will do OK. 

Yes the sooner bad incidents become just bad memories the better.  Having incidents rule your life and restrict what you do  is very unfair and the sooner you are healed, mentally or physically, the better. From the way you have mentioned past bad times gives me confidence you will get over this one too.

Croix