Hi all, I’ve been struggling with unwanted intrusive thoughts for the past 3 months and I feel hopeless.
I am a straight male, always have been. I’ve been struggling with homosexual thoughts which seem to have come out of nowhere and are disturbing and very stressing.
Every time I get these thoughts (quite constant) I start getting anxious and it leads me to start stressing that what I’m thinking may be true, it may be what I want or it may be what I am. My thoughts and feelings feel so real and it stresses me because my thoughts are NOT what I am.
Since these thoughts started developing I have felt lost, unhappy, depressed and stressed. I have been dating my girlfriend for 10 months now and it feels like I’m losing all my love, affection and attraction to her which stresses me all the more 😞 my mind is always constantly having these disturbing thoughts and I don’t understand why I’m not having as many thoughts about her anymore. It’s stressing me so much.
I have also been finding it hard to be turned on sexually by her which I always used to go crazy about. I miss having normal lovely thoughts about her.
It stresses me because the thoughts are constant and I don’t know when they are going to end. It confuses me because I am straight, and I’ve never had any thoughts about guys. I am not attracted to males.
I am seeing a councillor on Friday and I hope he’ll be able to give me advice.
I have cried and cried and I’m just so stressed :(, I’d appreciate any help or advice anyone has to have.
