Here is a little clarification. Let me explain ;
Up until a month or two months ago my father and I were on the verge of homelessness. As we had to sell our house due to my parent’s divorce and we had been applying for places to live but there were many rejections that we faced. Luckily we have a house now!
So basically I pretty much live in certain cases of poverty. Most times we barely have enough money to pay bills and grocery shopping can be very expensive. Sometimes we resort back to community resources - like food banks: and they help tremendously! So appreciative of them!
I study at university but I am just concerned that my life will always be like this. I sometimes feel like having goals, ambitions and dreams in my life is a slight waste of time.. because I have grown up in this type of environment all of my life.
Not much money, so much financial stress and so much hardship..
I’m a definite high achiever and I study hard. And above all else I am thoroughly invested in my studies. I love learning!
I just feel like I am experiencing so much unnecessary stress and anxiety, haha don’t we all feel that way though?!
My mother was psychologically abusive towards me and I’ve had to parent my father, in some ways. Plus I am a misfit and don’t have many friends my age. Plus my first ever proper relationship made me feel unappreciated and undesirable. Seven months no contact with him though! YAY!
Life is so uncertain and sad. I’m just trying my absolute best. I hope I can achieve my goals and be a better version of myself.
PF.
