Trusting myself

[Merricat]

When I have to make a decision or ask a question I get very confused.  Because I have had mental health issues since I was a little girl, I have never trusted in myself to make the right decisions or say the right words. I still feel like that same little girl who never spoke up or made a decision.  I'm scared my mental health issues are influencing what I say or do, and that what I say or do may not be normal.

Most recent example was a few weeks ago on this forum, I read a reply to the original poster and I was so upset by what they said.  I remembered thinking I should report it but was worried that I may have misinterpreted it so I did nothing.  I found the post again a few weeks later, as I had decided to report it to the moderators, only to find the offensive reply had already been removed.  I hate myself for not actioning it at the time as I know it hurt this young woman.  I can't seem to trust myself with anything.  Sorry if this post doesn't make sense.

[ABC01]

Dear Merricat,

 I am sorry that you have to spend Christmas alone. But I have heard that it isn’t uncommon. That hurts my heart though. Perhaps if we are still on the forums at that time we can wish each other Merry Christmas.

Please know I have been through many different medications too,and the doctors have said I am very sensitive to medications. That is why I have had a challenge finding the mix that works for my specific body. I am sorry that you still experience side effects.  Sometimes you have to push through and see if the side effects wear off. Medications are like a bandaid. They aren’t the answer. They are part of the answer. They help the chemicals in your brain balance out and connect. I wouldn’t take any medications I don’t have too,believe me. And once again,something that is 100% up to you.

You have been incredibly kind to me today.

Thank you so much.

You are good at talking to people too.

ABC011