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[Guest_65617110]

I feel so ashamed and embarrassed. I had a baby 10 months ago and I think I have severe anxiety. I have nearly destroyed my relationship, by constant worry that my partner is cheating, saying that he doesn’t love me, and by pretty much being a horrible person. I feel like a failure, I don’t know where to start to get help. I’ve tried all the online advice, meditation, exercise self care. But continue to get worse. I literally had to beg my partner for one last chance. What do I do. I’m so ashamed and feel like such a failure. Please help 

[Merricat]

Hi Guest

Warm welcome to the forum and I'm so sorry you are feeling distressed.  This is a time when a woman needs reassurance and support.  Hopefully one of the caring BB mums will reply to your post soon.

I'm in my sixties and I don't have kids but my advise to you is to talk to your GP as soon as possible rather than looking for answers online.  I must admit I do that all the time as well but I think in this case professional advice is needed.

I suspect it's your anxiety mixed with exhaustion that is making you jump to conclusions about your partner.  Right now you need a safe, loving, nurturing environment for your 10 month old baby.  Is your partner exhibiting any signs of cheating or are they also feeling overwhelmed but perhaps not communicating with you?

Make an appointment ASAP with your GP as I'm sure they will be able to help you.  

Take care

Merricat 🌹