Dear Halzxxx1~
Welcome here to the Forum, it can be a pretty good place to receive support, care and advice. I"m sorry about hte loss of your dad, you must have been very close.
Having angina and tachycardia are both very frightening physical conditions, and combined wiht a family history of heart problems I do not blame you in the least for being very scared, particularly when the medications for them don't work 100%.
Incidentally please don't refer to medications by name, it is one of the rules here (don't stress over it, I'm just mentioning it in passing)
The other conditions in your life, anxiety, panic disorder, PTSD, trauma and depression, are themselves incredibly hard to cope with, and one of their effects is to make you worry more about the physical problems, particularly during the panic attacks you have been having.
You have listed treatments for the physical matters, may I ask if you are also under treatment for these illnesses too? I too have PTSD, anxiety and bouts of depression, and am only in a good condition now with these things under control due to competent medical help, therapy and meds.
It would help to know if the palpitations are part of your tachycardia, or are caused by stress.
Going back 6 years, were you able to cope with you physical ailments and family history OK? You sound as if you were pretty happy then. The seeds of that happiness are still inside you, it is a question of bringing them out again - which may take time, but is possible, I'm an example.
May I ask who you have in your life to support you when you are feeling frightened or the palpitations start?
If they are due to anxiety it is often possible to minimize or defeat them though controlled breathing and such smartphone apps like Smiling Mind. When I've had panic attacks I've had palpitations and have tried to keep on going with whatever I have been doing, not always successfully but the attempt helps (this does not apply to driving of course)
I do hope you come back and talk some more
Croix
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