Struggling

[blues23]

1. Having a bad time lately lots of things happening at work I went to work safe cause of Persistent bullying behaviour from co workers , and ever since I did this my anxiety is thru the roof I have so many people poking prodding making me relive the things those people did to me I am so sad and scared and just want it all to stop all I want is a safe work place where I won’t be bullied threatened and assaulted is this too much to ask ? Obviously it is I’m my workplace 

[blues23]

hi jaz 

yes I’m going on leave as I have been given no capacity to work from my dr . I don’t know if it’s the right thing or not to go to work safe but I felt I had no other option as my manager doesn’t care what happens to me and has stated that my feelings don’t matter in the workplace so I’m pretty much done with any communication with her whatsoever she’s not a human I can respect after those words left me so unable to cope and triggered a series of events in my mind that just can’t be undone .

thank you for your support and kind words it really helps . 🙂

[james1]

Hey blues23,

How are you going? Just thought I'd check in on you as it sounds like you reached the end of your patience with your manager and needed to take time out to care for yourself, which sounded like it could be really helpful.

Have you already started your leave?

James

[blues23]

Hi James 

im really you and down more down than up most days really , still struggling with nightmares, disturbed sleep and some triggering dreams that don’t make me feel too good . Yes I am on leave I have no capacity to work at the moment I have one more day before worksafe decides If they take my case or not it’s quite scary to think about I’ve currently been on leave for around 4 weeks I’m still struggling thou , it’s not that I reached the end of my patience it’s more the fact that no matter what happens to me at work she won’t help me and sides with the people who are bullying me and rescuers to help me in anyway and blames it on me not communicating properly when all I’ve done is communicate I have over60 emails asking her for help with these bully’s all have been dismissed . 

[james1]

Hey blues23,

I'm really sorry, I thought I replied but I must've forgotten to actually reply.

How did your case with worksafe go? And have you had your counselling session that was scheduled for August?

James

[blues23]

Hi James 

sorry I’ve been offline too been detoxing as much as I can , yes the work safe case got approved I’ve just started counseling it’s very hard to go thru my counseling says I’m only early stage yet I have to get to the end of the hard part which is the first step I guess . I’m finding today hard cause I had to talk about it and answer emails from the wellness team at work and well that’s just a whole barrel of fun . How are u going ? 

[james1]

Hey blues23,

Detoxing sounds like a great idea. I'm so glad to hear your case got approved and you've been able to start counselling. I really hope you find it helpful, as it sounds like you could really do with some good quality support.

I am doing well thank you. I busted my wrist at training on saturday which is really annoying, but it's been healing in a brace so hopefully I can get back to training with a bit of wrapping on. Mentally, I have a psychologist who i see really regularly and have been for the last 6 or so years. I found it tough at first, but by now it's just a really nice thing to have regularly, and to know someone has my back. So it's probably been the most stable few years I've had in memory.

Hope you have a nice week. Let us know how you go - we're here for you if you are finding this part particularly hard, and whenever you just need a friendly ear.

James

[geoff]

Hello blues, it's good Work Safe have approved your case, so I would ask them whether or not you have to answer your works emails because what you say may be used against you if a settlement has been organised.

It would be difficult going back to this workplace, because all of this may intensify and make it more difficult to work there under these circumstances.

Geoff.

Life Member.

[blues23]

Hi James 

im trying to detox I’ve had quite the battle last fees days my work complaining my wwc are wrong dates ect all things out of my cont as my Dr is the one filling them out so I can’t help his mistakes . Other than that had a few scans on injured shoulder and hopefully treatment will help that heal , the mind is still taking its time . Trying to rest as much as I can . Your wrist sounds painful , how did u hurt it ? 

i hope my psychologist can also help with my anxiety and depression around my situation 

[blues23]

Hi Geoff 

Thanks for your reply , 

how are u ? 

I agree it is very hard to fathom going back to my workplace very hard .i haven’t said much to OHS co ordinator at my work in regards to return they think I’ll be better in like 3 sessions of therapy which they are dreaming , I haven’t really responded much in emails in regards to returning to work they know I’m not communicating with my manager and will not communicate with her she’s a toxic human and I want nothing to do with her I can’t help that I’ve made that clear it’s how I feel and I won’t be subjected to her treatment anymore,so that’s pretty much set in stone I think they hold out hope I’ll forgive her but I never will so right now I’m just trying to focus on my recovery and  remove all toxicity and whatever will be will be In regards to Returning to work . 

[james1]

Hey blues23,

Eurgh, that just sounds like a real frustrating experience. Hopefully they get through the paperwork now without too much hassle.

Have you had your session already or is it coming up this last week of August?

I injured my wrist at brazilian jiu-jitsu. It's actually an old injury from years ago, and I seem to have sprained it badly again. I suppose it was still weak from before. It's very frustrating because I now have a constant left wrist injury, right tennis elbow injury, a weak right ankle, and both my big toes are also just very weak from old injuries too. And I'm not even 31! I think I'll need a mechanical body by 40.

James