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hi to everybody. mmm where to start. pretty sure i got social anxiety.dont like a crowds. if i go i will stay for a while but then i need to get out. i usually leave without anybody knowing.used to laugh alot [no not camalot] and joke a fair bit but it has gone by the way side. i have always been an outsider but still mangaged to socialise a bit. i live by myself on a station which is not helping the situation ,i have come to relise this . am medatating atm but i have neg thoughts more than i care. i catch myself doing it and stop and try to be positive. probably joined up on this site to look for help but have some communation as well. have been thinking of going back down sth to my cousins farm next yr to be around more people which is oxymoron as i dont like a lot of people around me.

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hi dory . yep u really r on the edge of the solar system . takes a strong and deacated person to live remotally. not for everyone. . i'"m hearing u about the people that turn up outa the blue to say gday. u meet some interresting people from all walks of life ,not just from oz. theson and his famialy have just brought the stn off his father so that has put everyone to ease a bit . they r a great family to work for. i have been getting out a bit more lately and found this is helping as in learning to commmunacate with people and learning to relax around them. still getting neg thoughts but reckonising it early to put a stop to it . thanks enjoy life and keep smiling

[BballJ]

Hi something missing,

Wow sounds interesting, the medication can have that affect, maybe it is something worth discussing with your doctor, my only fear is that does it allow you to re-connect with your thoughts down the track when you come off the medication.

Have you been better since you last posted?

My best,

Jay

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Hi Jay and Dory. been a llloooooong time since i was on line. i do this sort of thing . full on or nothing then start again. life has been good. still get negitive thourghts but not so much and of course this bring on tension across the shoulders and neck which bring on migrains . my own fault. still have social issues (supposed to b at a music festive)nah. but on the bright side my issues r tiny compared to other peoples. am leaving my dream job overseeing the stn and moving back to family farm in july. realised my life needs to change and staying here is not going to change anything .u have to change the situation to change the out come.i have enjoyed my time here and will miss it but it is time to move on. going to get back on line here a bit more to see if i can help people with words of encuoragement.a kind word can sometimes go a long way. any way guys thanks for listening ,remember life is great keep smiling