Severe anxiety

[YellowPoppy]

Hi, new here... (may have a half finished post somewhere - sorry)

I have had anxiety since I was a child.
I have suffered from both anxiety and depression for most of my life
About 7 weeks ago i hit rock bottom. I had a really bad anxiety episode
That left me physically ill. And I was miserable and depressed and crying
For almost a week.

Since then, with the support of my mum, my partner and various health professionals,
I have gotten better, walking daily, eating well, sleeping well, but Easter night
I was ill again. And now I am back to where I started.

It feels worse then the first time though. Everytime I think about things that would normally make me happy
Or make me smile I feel miserable and I'm in dispair.

It's allot worse than what I've written but I don't want to trigger anyone who may be struggling.

Thanks for listening/reading

YellowPoppy

[MsPurple]

Hi YellowPoppy and welcome to the forums

I myself have been through a few rough patches. I know how horrible it can be. It feels like their is no way out and that it will never et better. The despair and poor motivation can feel overwhelming at times. But I am glad you have taken the first step. Because as much as you try doing it alone, getting help makes it so much easier and makes recovery possible. It also allows you to know that you are not alone. And you know how others care about you. Professionals chose to do this as a job as they have a caring nature and want to help. I find this comforting for myself.

I wanted to let you know you are not alone and you have done well to start the long term recovery process. Many find this the hardest part

Welcome 🙂

MsP

[YellowPoppy]

Thanks,
I know I'm not alone it's just so hard to convince myself that I'm not. I still feel alone

[MsPurple]

I get where you are coming from. It is hard to imagine so many people can feel this way hey?

[YellowPoppy]

I just feel completely isolated and the fact that other people feel the same doesn't help me.

[YellowPoppy]

I don't mean to comeb across as dismissive and I do appreciate having someone to talk to.

[MsPurple]

HI YellowPoppy

you are not coming across as dismissive to me. Sometimes I have poor concentration (have ADD) so I understand if some days you don't want to right much or if you want to get straight to the point. You can feel free to write as much or as little as you feel. This is your thread and you can feel safe here to talk how you like

[YellowPoppy]

Hi Ms Purple,

Thank you for that.
Right now I think what I want is for someone to make it better.

Thank you for getting back to me

[MsPurple]

HI YellowPoppy

I know how you feel. I had a terrible depression day yesterday.

Have you talked to your gp/psychologist/psychiatrist about this? Maybe look into acute mental health services in your area. I have called mine in the past and they were really helpful

[YellowPoppy]

Hi,
I have an appointment with a psychologist tomorrow and a gp appointment next week.

I'm just trying to stay mindful but sometimes I get so overwhelmed.
I'm sorry you had a bad day yesterday!

YP