Hi all,
This is my first time posting here and I feel silly for having to do so.
I have always suffered anxiety and depression and have been on medication for many years. I always thought I knew the worst of this illness, but I only realised just how bad I can get after recently resigning from a new job with nothing else to go to (aka self-induced).
I have been reaching out to family and friends, but I'm conscious of the fact that they can only do so much. I live a long way from my family (Victoria vs Queensland), but I have never wanted more for them to be closer. I live alone and have been single for 6 years now, so apart from those on the other end of text or phone, there is really no one.
Leaving a well-paid job because of moral issues with the industry and what it was doing to me mentally is crazy enough, but I can't help but think about what would have been worse. Putting up with the moral dilemmas and still getting paid for it, or the current situation I find myself in.
I am applying for jobs and by most accounts, people would say that I'm highly employable with a lot of experience in my field. But I can't escape the feeling that I have brought this on myself and need to punish myself for my stupid life choices.
