Posting for the first time

[Rynn]

Hi,

this is the first time I’ve ever posted on anything, to be honest I’m a little bit nervous. I found myself exploring beyond blue and it’s forums due to experiencing a lot of anxiety recently, I’ve had anxiety in the past but have been fine for a long time. Things that never used to bother me make me really nervous and upset now and it takes me a really long time to let go of them. Even if everything is fine I’ll find myself thinking about the event for hours afterwards, agonising over every little detail.

at the end of the day it’s been really difficult to “turn off” so I can go to bed and get some sleep.

right now I’m just looking for someone to talk to

[Guest_4643]

Thanks Rynn, I'm here for you too.

Good on you for doing those things. I feel the same about people judging me, it's hard to deal with and ignore. I sleep at about 2am or so also.

[Amanda2000]

Hi Rynn,

I experience the same thing. And I sleep at 2am too!

The stop-technique has helped me from going round-and-round in circles. I literally say out loud "stop" and "these feelings will soon go away". Then I refocus on something else by practising mindfulness where I try to really observe 3 things right in front of me. For example, I might go make myself a cup of tea and focus on 3 things: colour of the mug, the sound as I tear the tea-bag wrapper, the steam from the hot water as I pour into the mug.

I've tried adjusting my diet to more healthy eating but these so-called super foods have given me food-intolerance, which added to my misery. Luckily chocolate doesn't give me any problems haha.

I can definitely relate to your library scenario.

I think we all get good days and bad days. I try to celebrate the little-wins as much as I can.

[Rynn]

Hi everyone,

I guess this is more of a rant today, also me trying to let go of an event that triggered my anxiety.

today was a good day out (a nice short one, back home in time for lunch!). For the first time in a long time I wasn’t worried about judgments or doubting myself. Everything was great till I got inside and while taking off shoes I saw a small spider run out from under a shoe, so I grabbed a shoe and squashed it but as I was putting the shoe down I saw another spider, I squashed that one too.
lately spiders have been a big trigger for my anxiety, which I don’t fully understand because I never used to be afraid of them nor did they bother me.
whenever something like that happens I am left feeling very sensitive for a long time afterwards, that’s after I’ve managed to calm down. I feel like spiders and other things are hiding in every corner of our home, even though I know logically that’s not the case.
I was going to de clutter, deep clean and reorganise a room this afternoon to make it more functional, but I’ve been procrastinating for fear of another spider. I think I’ll leave it for today and just try to let go of today’s event.

[Rynn]

Hi Amanda2000

i definitely agree that we all get good and bad days.
Chocolate is pretty awesome, sorry to hear that superfoods didn’t agree with you
for now I’ve just been trying to add more fresh foods every day, like picking an apple instead of crackers for a snack and adding more veggies and less rice/pasta for dinner. I was sort of going with the idea that a better balance of vitamins and minerals would help my overall health and help me feel less tired. When I’m tired my anxiety is worse and it’s harder to calm myself.

[Rynn]

Having a really bad day today,

thought I was just going through a bit of anxiety but I guess my depression is winning over again.
years ago I was diagnosed by my doctor as having depression and anxiety, I’ve been off medication for years and thought I was on the right/good path.
seemed as though all this was, was a bit of anxiety that I thought was due to to tough year we’ve all been through, but now I think it’s something more.
I feel more and more miserable each day

[Rynn]

I thought cleaning up and organising our house might help, but I still feel miserable

[geoff]

Hello Rynn, try insect bombs, they will kill all insects inside your house, but you have to leave the house while they're 'going off', and if you're able to, go outside with a broom and remove the spider's web and any air vents if you have brick walls, put some insect screen (what's used to for your windows to keep the flies out), if you don't have any spare laying around, then put some alfoil, if you can check on this every few days, then hopefully with the bombs you won't have any spiders.

There are also those sprays you attach to the wall that spray every few minutes that kill any insects, flies and spiders or you can place them on a shelf.

You don't have to clean the whole house in one day, just do room by room, bu placing the bombs in your house maybe an incentive, take it at your own time.

Best wishes.

Geoff.

[Rynn]

It’s been ages since I’ve posted last. Nothing has really changed since my last post, but need to vent. I feel like I’ve been going crazy lately I try and try (at least I think I’m trying) and nothing seems to get better. This spider season has been horrific in our house (since the start of spring I’ve killed about 48 whitetail spiders inside) my anxiety is the worst that I can remember it and I feel conditioned to expect a nasty surprise when I open cupboards or do laundry. I’ve finally booked pest control but they can’t come till the end of the month. To add to all this my relationship has suffered tremendously due to the last few months. This last year and a bit have been horrible and now all I can focus on is spiders and when the next one will appear, it takes me easily three times longer to do anything because I’m so anxious and I can’t relax. All I want to do is talk about each one I find which has left no room for any other discussions.

[Rynn]

Everyone else I’ve spoken to has said spiders have been bad at their places too, but why does it seem that I’m the only one so obsessed that nothing else matters anymore? There have been days where I wonder if I’ve lost my mind. It’s just spiders but i cant stop thinking about each time for hours afterwards
like the bushfires stressed me out badly, and that’s when I stopped sleeping properly then the storms started. After that it was COVID

[Petal22]

Hi Rynn,

Yes anxiety does this to us... things that never really bothered us does now because your anxiety is turned up...

I once had severe anxiety but have now recovered due to the help I received from professionals..

have you thought about seeing your gp about the way you are feeling? My gp was amazing through out my mental health issues... I was put on a antidepressant for my anxiety which really helped and I did a mental health plan aswell which gave me 10 free sessions with a phycologist... they gave me many strategies for my anxiety which really helped.... 😊