not right....

[mrsanxiety]

ive been going well with my anxiety and depression but today/tonight nothings going right!! My partner has started working which is so great. But he has to stay at his sisters house 1 hour away. Hes home every two or three days. He is my rocks. we just got a new dog yesterday. bulldog cross hes 13 months old. its the first dog ive owned in 5 years. we adopted him... im just not feeling a connection with him. Hes very energetic and needs alot of training. im not sure why im feeling this way but everything is making me feel numb. I feel very alone and it hurts. i have no family who live close. Ive barely been sleeping i have a 6 year old daughter so no sleep makes life hard. I want help, no i need help! But i want someone who will come to my house where im comfortable. I know i need help. My depression is becoming out of control. i also got my implant contraceptive out a week ago after having it for four years and im wondering could that be affecting me?? I feel scrambled even in what im writing and im just asking if theres anyone thats felt this way? Anyone that can help?

Thank you for reading. hope to hear from someone soon

[Pixie15]

Hi mrsanxiety,

I think that adopting a dog is like having a child in a way. Bonding is not immediate.Dogs can be good company but they have needs like being walked, toilet trained and socialized much like children except they never grow up. I bought a puppy for my partner a few years ago and after the first day or so of having it at home I realized because he was away from the house more a lot of the responsibility for looking after it would fall on me I panicked and wanted to return to the shop. However now we have a second dog and they are both my friends. Their not a substitute for human company but they are good company when I am home alone.

Cheers,

Christine.

[Pixie15]

Hi again. Just another thought I had when I reread your post. If you think that your depression is worsening and want to know how your contraceptive device is affecting you it would probably be a good idea to go and see your doctor about this. Can you encourage your partner to look for work closer to home?

thanks, 

Christine.

[mrsanxiety]

thank you so much for your reply christine i dont feel so alone. Me and our puppy memphis are going greaat lately, Hes still not listening completely to me but is slowly listening. I do feel like responsibility falls on me but i seem to be haandling it alot better. My partner suggested himself getting a job closer to home as he doesnt like being away from me and our daughter (or memphis) lol Ive been thinking of seeing a doctor but im like many and really dislike doctors. I always fear bad news. Thank you so much christine youre a great help

Mrsanxiety

[Pixie15]

Hi mrsanxiety,

I hope your partner does find something closer to home. If you do not like doctors you could check to see if you have a women's health service close to you. They may be able to offer you some useful services. I did a menopause workshop with my local one which was really helpful.

Hope your having a good Easter.

Christine.