None of my spaces are safe

[SquireHarbour]

Hello everyone, it's me again back with more lockdown venting.

I just saw the stuff happen on the television. I just feel sick to death of the anti-lockdown protesters claims of freedom. I really want to go out there and shout at the world but I know that won't help. Mostly I am feeling extremely let down for my future prospects.

I am scared of calling the helplines because I don't think they will understand what I am feeling about all of this. My parents have tried multiple times to help, but they're at their wits end. My psych and my meds helped but every day still feels like a rut. I don't know how I am going to survive until September.

I tried going to the coping thread on this forum, but all it seems to be now waves of cynicism, hatred and dreams of punishment, posters just angry at everything and not cooping at all (raging about people, blaming people, having opinions that are just damaging MH and not contributing anything at all) and I can't stand my spaces being infected with this stuff any longer. Seeing the anti lockdown protests on the telly, people raging about 'the media', angry at people, rage at everything, its just sending my anxiety through the roof. Is this what its going to be like until next year? People raging at everything?

I wish I can tell people to just stop, but I am terrified they will all jump on me as a breakage of the train line. And I still feel disconnected from everything, really.

[AJ00]

I would recommend staying away from news agencies for now and strictly look at posts/announcements made by the department of health in your state. Unfortunately, this is how news agencies get clicks by posting content that locks it's customers. Think of it as an advertisement.

[SquireHarbour]

I feel like we just lost all sense of sanity at this point. Like... the coping thread doesn't even feel like coping because its just ranting about vaccines, lockdowns, taking pot-shots at the people upstairs, rage at everything, snide comments at other peoples beliefs and the like. And I am anxious about finding support because I don't feel like anyone will even want to contribute to anything.

I honestly don't know where to go.

[Petal22]

Hi SquireHarbour,

Sorry you are feeling this way, it must be very distressing for you.

Please try not to watch the news instead watch something else you enjoy…, maybe a movie…

Im sorry to hear your anxiety is high, I understand anxiety I had severe anxiety OCD I have now recovered from this disorder thanks to the help of professionals.

Please feel you can call the helplines they are there because they want to help and support you they will understand you… please don’t hesitate in calling them having a chat may help you to feel better..

That’s great you are seeing a psychologist maybe you could try to have another session soon with your psychologist so you can discuss how you are feeling, has your psychologist been able to give you strategies for your anxiety?

Please know your not alone and we are here as a community to support you.

Here to chat

[Sophia16]

Hi SquireHarbour,

I feel as if we are in the same boat. The whole situation is really bad and it feels like it will never end. It is really hard but I know you will get through it.

I recommend getting off social media and hold off watching the news all the time. Maybe once in a while. It will just raise your anxiety even more.

Please do not be hesitant to call the helplines. They are trained not to judge and to help you through this tough situation.

Psychologists and counsellors are also super helpful during these times.

if you need to chat, please do not be scared. I don't judge 🙂 Hope you are feeling okay.

[geoff]

Hello SquireHarbour, can I agree with AJ100 by trying to ' stay away from news agencies', because every time you turn the TV on, the first broadcast is all about the lockdowns and comments by scientists and politicians all talking about this virus, we don't get any relief at all, although it is important to know what's happening, but to watch it all the time only reinforces our mental state.

Geoff.

[SquireHarbour]

Hi Geoff,

I often try to stay away from it, but it just feels like my disengagement often attracts the toxic mosquitos trying to take over my safe spaces. Its just anxiety inducing when I fear for what I want to say because I am afraid of people jumping on me, like one time I tried to talk about the state of things and my opposition to cynicism and all I got was people trying to tell me that doomerism is just "accepting you can't do anything" and "theyre going to win anyway so whats the point" and that just makes me both more anxious and more frustrated/emotional about things.

Even the coping thread Beyond Blue set up here doesn't feel safe for me anymore, because (at least to me anyway) its just swimming in anger about the people upstairs and rage and anger about everything relating to the pandemic. I don't feel like I can be safe in a space where people are just directing their anger everywhere.