New Health Anxiety

[Iwillbeatthis]

Hi guys,its not like me to be out there with my issues but I feel like any support right now can be beneficial. My story starts from several months ago where I was diagnosed with coeliac disease. I was having (not classic) symptoms for over a year before diagnosed. These ranged from joint pain, fatigue, weight gain, brain fog etc. my doc assumed underactive thyroid and at some times of testing it was underactive but follow ups were normal.Fast forward a few months, I had some back pain, not major - didn't even need pain killers, but googled middle back pain... Cancer. Well, there was my first panic attack, didn't know it at the time, all I did was go home feeling sick, not wanting dinner and just went to bed early.went to doc about back pain, recommended physio but also noticed I was anxious, told me to take medicationl due to bit of high BP. It made my heart rate low and short of breathe (I'm fit so a low heart rate really scares me when mine is already low). Went off that and on to another medication, it caused me all sorts of horrible side effects I had to stop. My back pain went, I felt great.a few weeks later I had some wrist pain. Crap. Why? I haven't done anything to my wrist. My mother in law mentioned maybe early arthritis (I'm 29). Straight to the doc, he said he had to test my rheumatoid since I was coeliac. Worst 2 days of my life getting results,the second day I was in extreme panic at work, veins all popping and heart rate up, went to doc, no RA but possible Lupus or Sjögren's syndrome... Got blood test and had to wait a week. All came back neg which is fine.i had a counseling session yesterday and just explaining everything made me anxious.. My anxiety attacks have been really horrible, causing body aches, chest pains etc and all health professionals have conducted tests etc and say I'm fine. This morning I awoke to some minor pain in my shin. Cancer. Couldn't even go to work! i live a healthy life, careful what I eat and I thoroughly enjoy running, which I did so whilst off work today. Just looking for advice from anyone who may be going through something similar. I'm finding it difficult. My husband and mother have been amazing but I have two young children who I've been quite snappy with. Quite funny with anxiety, you kind of need to keep your mind busy but I find when my time is demanded I get cranky because my body wants to keep thinking bad things.sorry for the rant but surely I'm not alone. I'm scared of dying young and not seeing my boys grow up! 

[Simona]

I'm sorry for you because I know what it's like.   I  was a hypochondriac long before i ended up with my blood disorder.   Now i have something real to obsess over because the results are here on paper. 

I have to work hard at being ultra healthy so I'm stable.    And i need blood tests every 6 months and a big blood test every year to rule out things like lymphoma.      My specialist wants me on treatment at the end of this year. 

I don't even want to go there /think about it.  I'm scared of having to take drugs because i get very paranoid

Shin pain -  splints maybe ?  i used to get them when i power walked with ankle weights.    I am sorry i have no other advice but i understand the fearing

: )

[Mummybee]

I wish I had found this post earlier.

i just posted my own thread about health anxiety. 

 i am exactly the same as you, I don't know what else to say, but you are not alone in anything that you have said.

i am constantly convinced that I'm dying of something horrid and my babies are going to lose their mummy.

hope you're having a better day. 

[Chris_B]

Hi everyone, this is a topic that comes up quite a bit on the forums. Below are some other threads you might want to check out:

 Health anxiety and panic disorder

Health anxiety, a long lonely road

Severe health anxiety

Health anxiety - please help

Health anxiety

Health anxiety is taking over

Health anxiety disorder

Health anxiety by KatieNZ

[firsttimemum]

Hi Mummybee,

I know you posted this a while ago, but was just thinking I can totally relate. So scared of dying and my little one being left alone. Its consuming my thoughts. Internet searching does not help at all, but I find it impossible to stop. How are you going now? Are you still feeling the same?

[Mummybee]

Hi Firsttimemum,

I just saw that you had responded to this, sorry.

I wish I could say im all recovered, but no. One thing I will say though, you commenting on this post has made me re read a lot of my posts from when all this began, and i realize how many things i have been CONVINCED that i have, and that in itself has made me feel a bit better, but also a bit sad.

My current worry is a lump on the bottom of my foot, im sure its cancer or something awful that is going to rip me from my world and my babies. But reading through these older posts makes me sad, i wish i could go back to myself back then and say "Hey, its OK! you dont have MS or MND, you dont have breast cancer or ovarian cancer, stop worrying and enjoy the day"

I wonder if ill come back in a few months and see this post and think "Its ok, the lump on your foot wasnt cancer or anything horrible, just relax and go play with your kids"

The sad thing is, my mental health doesnt allow me to just "Stop worrying". It would be nice though, wouldnt it?

Hope things are ok with you.

mummybee