Need to rant

[JacintaMarie]

Hi

I've been doing okay, been busy at work so tired so the negative thoughts have gone, though realized that I can't be busy in order to stop the intrusive thoughts, as when I'm not busy they come back & I can't stay busy 24 hours.

I've also cried, I do feel so pathetic for crying & being self pitying, I know deep down I shouldn't be. I'm trying to fix myself.

Also too, at work I keep on doing stupid things & making someone grumpy, even after I have tried, my brain is so useless.

I have been apologizing in my head to them, for the bad thoughts about them, they don't deserve it, it's my stupid negetive thoughts

I'm not being rational & logical. Thank you for being here beyond blue, another day closer to getting fix.

[Annewithan-e]

I don’t have much to add except... I hear you.

I fill every second I can do I don’t have to feel. I don’t know how to handle what comes when there is space.

I too am working on it. It’s the hardest thing I’ve done. It feels like you have to get worse before you get any better.

Nothing much seems to make me feel better apart from knowing I’m not the only person who feels like this... so I hope that you know you’re not alone xx

[JacintaMarie]

Thanks Anne(with an e)

It is good to know I'm not the only one, feeling better though the bad thoughts are there, trying to accept & float past them, as Dr Claire Weekes says,.

Hope you are feeling better, you will get there too! 😃