Lost hope and need a friend

[Music_Freak]

I'm a girl...Narelle, 36, from Adelaide, single, unemployed, cat mum...um, what else...I probably shouldn't reveal so much, but may as well be honest, right?

I have both anxiety and depression, and am a pessimist. I have lost all my "friends" because of this and feel worthless and like giving up. I have a GP and a psychologist, but I'm not even sure the therapy (I've been going for a few years now) is working for me.

I have two favourite bands (Sixx:A.M. and Halestorm. True Violet is another on the top of my list right now) and I write band fan fiction. In the past I have depended on these two things to help me through life, but now that they're not really working, I decided to try here.

I just hope to have people to talk to, and maybe make some friends.

[Music_Freak]

My cat's name is Buddy, that's what the shelter called him and it kind of felt right, so I kept it. Buddy loves his lead - anything to get outside 🙂

Buddy rotates favourite places I think, depending on if I'm home or not 🙂 He's got a window to sit at, a box or six, but lately he likes my bed, I guess in the colder weather he gravitates to where it's warm

[Guest_1055]

I see you wrote band fan fiction, what exactly is that?

[Music_Freak]

It's where you take a band or singer, anyone you want really, and put them in fictional situations.

My last one had my celebrity crush meeting an emotionally disturbed girl after a concert, and the fic is what ensues after they meet.

I hope that explains it well enough 🙂

[Guest_1055]

Oh... So do you have books published then?

Hey Emmy, I see your post just popped in there. Narelle's kitty cat is pretty cute isn't it?

[Music_Freak]

Oh no...just write for fun. I only used to let a select few friends read them, but we're not talking now, so it's just me who sees them.

I'd like to get published but I'm not sure I could handle the rejection etc.

[Emmy.]

I looked up the bands you like 🙂 I liked the songs "Here's to us" (halestorm) and "mommy I'm sorry" (true violet).

[Melissa74]

Hello just wanted to say I am loving this thread.

I have a cat too an exotic persian. Animals and music are so calming.

Is SIXX.AM the band of Nikki Sixx?

[Music_Freak]

Yes, Sixx:A.M. is Nikki Sixx's band 🙂

I love Here's To Us and Mommy I'm Sorry as well.

Mommy I'm Sorry is a song that made me bawl when I heard it, makes me remember my mum. Mama by Il Divo is another one of "those" songs...

I'm grinning like a Cheshire cat right now because someone likes my music...makes me too happy, probably 🙂

I can't believe someone likes my thread...surreal...

[Melissa74]

LOL its great when you can connect with someone.

I am a Motley Crue fan.

Can't listen to songs about Mums makes me feel upset.

Glad my post made you happy 😀

[Guest_1055]

Hey Narelle, Emmy and Melissa.

Just saying hello Narelle, are you OK today? I had an image of a Cheshire cat in my head, when you said you smiled like one. Hey I am glad you smiled though. How is your kitty cat Buddy? I would love to get another cat, but unfortunately I am not able to at the moment. I noticed that you posted on a couple of other threads. Anyway hope you are OK.

And Melissa, I agree it is great when you feel like you can connect with another person. I have to be honest though, being connected is still foreign to me, as I find it quite a challenge. There is been a couple on here that I have felt this feeling at times, but generally speaking I don't connect that well or something. Hope you are OK Melissa.

Shell xx