Hi everyone. This is my first posting on this forum. I am trying to understand my state of mind these days. I have been reading about OCD and my behaviour certainly does seem to fit with the obsessional thinking that goes on with this condition. I experienced the exact
same symptoms/behaviour when I was 19 and had my first 'real'
girlfriend. It was not a pleasant relationship. Anyway, I am currently seeing a mental health professional as I experience intrusive images and thoughts when I am intimate with my current girlfriend. They were not present when we were first together (at this time I couldn't get enough of her, things were just bliss), it developed after a couple of months perhaps. I had an image of one of my male friends, and I have started catastrophizing the situation, calling myself gay and being extremely scared of becoming a homosexual (not that I am against homosexuality at all). Now the nonsense
self-labeling and images tend to fill large parts of everyday, and they can be very aggressive. This has
been going on a few months. Some days were/are very very tough. The funny thing is, I've been single the last four years, and never had these aggressive thoughts or images ever in that time (and during other periods of my life. I can't believe how unpleasant anxiety feels, and how it can make you doubt other things about yourself...Anyway, I'm interested if anybody else has had a similar experience? I have perused OCD literature and sexual obsessions seem to be somewhat common.
