Ideas on what I should do??

[One_million_pieces]

So in the cinema today I saw the beyond blue Anxiety ad and it really struck home. All of it. I previously knew I had highly probable depression and anxiety, so I came here and took that  k10 test or whatever it's called, and apparently I'm getting between 29 and 30 on that. I have no Monet at all, don't work and live with parents and study. I also don't think I could handle talking to someone face to face. Any ideas would be appreciated. 

[jam8821]

Hi one million pieces,  ive been struggling with anxiety panic attacks since I was 18 and im 25 now. I feel for me the best way if you dont want to talk to someone is to write basically a letter either to the person you need to tell or talk something through with. Or write down everything first read it then re write what you think you have missed out or make more sense of. Talking on the phone can help aswell but if like me u get a little silent cause ur upset.  I go for writing. 

[geoff]

hi One million pieces, would you able to tell us how old you are, however if this worries you then it's OK, no problems.

There are many people who struggle with depression but don't take this test, so they are just stuck in this void, with no help what's so ever, and this is sad for them, because it's a real problem that affects their life in every way.

People who can't talk to someone is also another issue, but also very common, because they are frightened of any response from any person, and this is understandable, because their fear is that the person will just say to them 'why are you depressed, you have everything that we have given you'.

This is an inappropriate answer, because it seems to ridicule you, and it doesn't face the real problem, and that being your depression.

What you want is for them to sit down with you and discuss these issues, but we are scared that this won't happen, so this fear immediately stops us from talking to them.

As Jam has said that if we talk on the phone that our emotions take over, and we are unable to tell them about our problems, and this happens so many times, but it's not your fault, it's just depression taking over.

You could try and ring the phone number above, or post on this site where you can take your time, so it's really which one suits you, but there are so many caring and understanding people on this site, all of whom have gone from hell and back several times, so we all understand what pain you are experiencing, so I hope that you can continue posting on this site. Geoff.

[amamas]

Hi One million pieces

How are you coping today?

I remember when I first did that test I got such a shock!!  I understand you not wanting to talk to someone as it is hard.

I highly recommend the online support here on BB.  Their hours are 4pm to 10pm EST  they are really good and very supportive.  They will find possible support for you that may help you cope better.

Please don't try and do this without support, also as Geoff said keep posting on here as we are all here for you and we really do understand.

Big hugs, Amamas

[One_million_pieces]

Im 18 but 19 in January. Typing is where I feel most comfortable, but still takes a considerable amount of effort not to delete anything.

[One_million_pieces]

Yes I go totally silent, its just horrible. Letters would work, I do feel most comfortable with typing and writing. Thank you.

[One_million_pieces]

Thank you so much Amamas, I will go onto the chat sometime. I'll try to keep up around here if i can.

[geoff]

hi One million pieces, when you type something on this forum then that's how you actually feel, you need not worry about saying anything, we don't know who you are, what you look like or what state you live in, and in actual fact I only have 9 toes, so there we go.

Your branching supposedly into the prime of your life, but unfortunately your not, so please have a go. Geoff.

[Pixie15]

Hi,

Just had a couple of thoughts to share.

If you are living at home do you have a family member or friend you can trust to talk to and maybe accompany you to go and see a doctor. If you are studying then you should be able to get support through the institution you are enrolled with.

I know from experience that it can be helpful to share with others on the BB but also I think it is a good idea to have a look at the recommendations for protecting your privacy which includes not sharing anything you would not be comfortable sharing with strangers. It may also be possible to run into someone on the BB in the real world. It can be a small world at times.

Peace.

[Anthony10]

Hi there I know from experience it's very hard to get support or even talk to others with mental health issues...I have just joined and hope to listen and share our experiences.

Anthony