HI Jun
It can be so incredibly challenging when you're a highly sensitive person surrounded by less sensitive or even insensitive people. When you're the only sensitive one, it can definitely feel lonely and like there's something 'wrong' with you. Imagine if everyone was as sensitive and thoughtful as you, then you'd be 'normal'. I'll put it to you this way, in the hope it makes some positive difference - What if everyone was meant to be sensitive? Wouldn't that actually make you 'normal' in the first place or far more natural than most people you know?
I'm wondering under what circumstances you're experiencing intense 'energy spikes' or panic attacks. Do they typically come on when you're thinking of stressful things or do they happen for no obvious reason? Wondering about the less obvious can lead to a lot of questions, such as 'Do I actually have a sensitive nervous system?' or 'Am I feeling the effects of having put certain foods I'm sensitive to in my body?'
Wondering if your a bit of an 'empath' too. Are you someone who feels what other people are feeling? Like when you're happy and suddenly feel really down when speaking to someone who's quite sad. You really feel their sadness, deeply. Empathic people are deeply sensitive compassionate people.
Can you easily feel when people 'bring you down'? Can you easily feel the effects of inspiration? The issue with inspiration, from my experience, is maybe we aren't getting as much as we'd like. It's so important sensitive people are raised through inspiration. They thrive on it, it really powers them up.
Is it possible you feel like someone else when you're around others because you're not being your natural self. I find this is the case for me. There are certain people who I can't entirely be myself around. I can be mostly myself but not completely. At times I find this to be incredibly frustrating. To give you an example: I do wonder a lot. My husband doesn't like wondering as much as me. When I ask him at times 'Do you ever wonder about...?' most of the time he'll accuse me of being foolish or 'grilling him'. What the...?! Most people I know love wondering. Once you get 'em started on what they wonder about in life, they're often surprised by how long their list is. Because I hold back on asking my husband wonderful questions, I can't entirely be myself around him. If I'm feeling truly inspired, I'll leave my husband to 'vibe low' and search for my wonderful teenagers. They're such amazing people.
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