I cant handlle this anymore!!!!

Chloekat84 · ‎21-09-2014

Ive been havin some really bad days when it comes to anxiety attacks that have lasted a day. I am nauseated all the time so cant eat I don' t know what to do this is happening day after day and I cant handle it! Ive been to the hospital a couple monthes ago and know I cant go back as there is no1 to look after my daughter. Ive been dinosed with borderline personality disorder and dysthymia which is a type of depression but my depression has been really bad lately also. PLEASE just let this adrenaline feeling end!!! :'(

Amelbourneboy · ‎23-09-2014

Its those first few seconds as you open your eyes up in the morning, than the wave hits. Its the only best way i can discribe the feeling. I feel it moving in and its so instense, it will ease a little than push me back under again.

i dont have any children but when im in the wave i cant even tolerate my partner asking me something. Its like it takes all my energy and brain power to make myself function.

I too for some unknown reason am more calmer in the evening!!!! I dont know if it because my mind and body give up or it takes all day to finally calm down. How are you today???

mtessa · ‎23-09-2014

Hello Chloekat84's,

CAT Team is the crisis assessment and treatment teams. They come to you if needed and review your medication….I think the mental health line can refer you. Anyway, how are you today? In my case, panic attacks again.

Take carexxx

Amelbourneboy · ‎23-09-2014

Hi Mtessa,

what are your panic attacks related too if you dont mind me asking? Do you have any personal tips to work through them? Ive have tried almost every "tip" out there. Some work for a few mintues others do nothing.

Chloekat84 · ‎23-09-2014

Yes changing drugs is hard to go through physically and mentally. I saw my Doc today and he has told me to stop the high dosage of the drug im taking which may be causing this reaction and making my anxiety worse. so ive been told to stop completely for two days than start on a low dose and slowly make the dose higher as I need it. Today has been another not soo good day but like others I get through it by being around people constantly to keep me company etc because I don't want to be alone. I good friend stayed over last night so I wouldn't be alone and she will again tonight which im thankful for. I feel a little bit more at peace now its the evening and my daughter is in bed. That's it for now. Take care x

Chloekat84 · ‎23-09-2014

Hello Amelbourneboy how r u? Today has been another bad day but as the day went on I very slowly started to feel a little better and now its evening and my daughter is in bed I can relax and have a shower and get into bed and watch telly b4 bed. I think its it is the exhaustion of anxiety on the body all day that it just lets go by the evening I duno I just know that once ive had a restful sleep and I wake up early in the morning its like ive been recharged and ready for more anxiety and depression to take over and that's wats hard is trying to stop it from starting but it does uncontrollably b4 ive even gotten out of bed 😞 really hoping these days change soon as my medication has been ceased for a few days as the dosae was too high obviously for my body to handle. So after a few days I can gradually start on a low dose and increase slowly. Anyways that's it for now so the end of the day is here thank god and im going to have a shower then rela in bed watching telly for a bit. hope u have a good night too. Take care x

Amelbourneboy · ‎23-09-2014

hey chloe,

Reading your last post almost brought tears to my eyes. It was like reading my own words!! I start my day off with raging anxiety, the shakes, that sick feeling, mind racing than as the day goes it leave. Tonight has been my first night in 6 that I have eaten dinner. Today has been so hard, at times the waves have been huge and long. I have tried to re-think the situations I know are causing it. It works for a few minutes but than its like a new voice pops (not that I hear voices) in and im back to the start.

I have just also had a nice and shower and climbed into bed, looking forward to signing onto this forum. I really do think its helps just type and talk and know there are so many others who are in the same way.

I have been lucky with the medication side of things, only had some slight start up effects but that was it. My biggest problem is forgetting to take them or thinking I don't need them... 2 days later dizzy, and I start getting waves again.

I hope you are nice and relaxed watching tv 🙂

Chloekat84 · ‎24-09-2014

Hello Amelbourneboy. I did have a relaxing evening watching a show I've been addicted to lately "the X factor". Completely disagreed with who they sent home though. Had a restful nights sleep but it was the anxiety that woke me up at 6.30 this morning and my daughter wasn't even awake yet. So didn't start the day well. I'm halfway through the day so just need it get through the rest if it. Feeling very nervous about my daughter being home with me tomorrow and how I'll cope as I can barely look after myself atm. Wish me luck so that I can get through 2moro. Take care x

Amelbourneboy · ‎24-09-2014

Hi Chloe,

Totally agree with you on the xfactor situation!!! I think it might all be a little staged anyway.

My day is pretty much on par with yours. Woke up, 3 seconds later the wave hit. I find when im at work i can distract my self more easier. Tomorrow Im home, all day, by myself. I plan on going for a walk at some point, just to get out of the house. If i dont all i will want to do is hide in a dark room and sleep. Try not to be too nervous about tomorrow because if you feel your not coping well, put a movie on for your daughter and hope online here, we are always here for support and too just listen. Dont put so much pressue on your self for an expectation to be a certain way. I have no doubt your an amazing mother, and your daughter will see the strength you have 🙂

mtessa · ‎24-09-2014

Hello,

I am having a panic attack at the moment. I have tried pretty much everything. Breathing techniques, etc… I think I just let it go (dixit Frozen-lol) and I tried to focus on my kids and not to think about the symptoms because it drives me nuts like now.

Hope you are feeling quite okxxx

Amelbourneboy · ‎24-09-2014

Hi Mtessa,

I know how hard it is, the more you try to not focas the more intentse it fills. Just try focas on the fact you can and will ride through it.

Are your panic attacks caused my anything in particular?