I cant handlle this anymore!!!!

Chloekat84 · ‎21-09-2014

Ive been havin some really bad days when it comes to anxiety attacks that have lasted a day. I am nauseated all the time so cant eat I don' t know what to do this is happening day after day and I cant handle it! Ive been to the hospital a couple monthes ago and know I cant go back as there is no1 to look after my daughter. Ive been dinosed with borderline personality disorder and dysthymia which is a type of depression but my depression has been really bad lately also. PLEASE just let this adrenaline feeling end!!! :'(

Chloekat84 · ‎24-09-2014

Hey Amelbourneboy. Yeh I think the show is a bit rigged as everyone ive talked to have agreed the wrong person went home. Anyways Im trying not to think about tomorrow but its hard. Im in bed relaxing now watching telly now and will go to sleep soon. Hoping for a restful night and relaxing morning although im not counting on it. Have a good night x

Amelbourneboy · ‎25-09-2014

Hi Chloe,

How did you go today?

Brad

Chloekat84 · ‎25-09-2014

Hey Brad.

Today started out as per usual anxious but not to the extreme it can get. I was invited to a play date with my sister and out kids to visit a mutual friend this morning and I was hesitant as I didn't feel good but said yes and made myself go and once I did I felt a lot better getting out and was even able to eat lunch today. Actual proper food for once. So im seeing improvement slowly. I got a bit anxious and depressed later this arvo when I was left with my daughter alone which sounds silly but I was. Anyways shes in bed now and I can relax. Hoping 2moro will be a better day and they will keep getting better. How was ur day?

Amelbourneboy · ‎25-09-2014

So great to hear you got through the day. It's the being that does the same thing to me. I think it's because when we are along, our minds have more time to wonder and think about things too much. The hardest part is always making that step to keep busy. It's easier to say no and hide away at home.

My day was.... A day lol. I had a psychologist appointment today. Was a new psychologist so it's always hard the first appointment. I always feels like they are going to judge me or think I'm totally crackers. I felt better after the appointment but it raises so many questions.

Chloekat84 · ‎26-09-2014

Im glad ur day wasn't too bad. Its always hard that first visit to see some1 new I knew but happy u got through it 🙂 My day today hasn't been too bad soo far I spent the morning at my dads as we had a "cooking lesson" as Im not the best cook and my dad is pretty good and I got to take the food home so dinner is sorted. Hoping to have a relaxing afternoon but we shall see. Feeling tired but resisting to take a nap so I can sleep well tonight. Hoping ur having a good day.

Amelbourneboy · ‎29-09-2014

Hey chloe,

i love cooking and find it helps calm me down. What did you learn to make? I think it's great to create something........ Than eat it! Lol how have you been the last few days? I have been so busy I haven't been on :(. Hope your well 🙂

Chloekat84 · ‎30-09-2014

Hey Amelbourneboy. The last few days have been busy. Ive been going down the street shopping a lot. Yesterday wasn't too bad but today hasn't been a good one have had anxiety and depression all day 😞 the anxiety just doesn't want to settle and felt a bit down here and there today 😞 Hope uve been doing well.