I am back and worst then ever

vala2017 · ‎24-10-2017

Hi everyone,

I had some health anxiety last year which cleared up with some time, but am now in a worst state then how I was last year. I now get these really obtrusive disturbing thoughts that come from I do not know where and they scare the hell out of me. I have been diagnosed with OCD and am seeing a psychologist about it, but they are away at the moment and not sure who else to turn to in the meantime.

I feel scared and alone and cannot relax.

Can anyone share any stories of how they have overcome this to give me some hope......I was a happy and fun person before this but now feel a shell of my former self. I really don't know how much more I can take and my anxiety is giving me anxiety!

Please share some success stories to help me get by this difficult time.

Thanks.

RadDad75 · ‎24-10-2017

Hi Vala,

You are not alone. I to have had disturbing and intrusive thoughts however you can manage it. I am learning to and there can be a light at the end of the tunnel. There is a wealth of information on the forums here. Try searching with the string "intrusive thoughts" and you should get a number of hits. The other thing i did was purchase a book called "brain lock" which someone else on here recommended and it is absolutely fantastic. It really has helped me no end. Please consider reading and purchasing it as it is directed at OCD sufferers. If you need any more help please let me know. Good luck on your journey and i wish you well.

vala2017 · ‎25-10-2017

Thanks RadDad for the encouraging words and the book recomendation. I will check it out.

geoff · ‎25-10-2017

hello Vala, I lost my previous reply to you, never mind.
What RadDad has said is very good so please google 'intrusive thoughts' it's a large post concerning this particular fear.
I've had OCD for 58 years and in this time this journey has been quite extensive, with one thought that always annoyed me when I was younger, I always thought that I wanted to hit my dear Mum who I dearly loved, but as soon as she was put into a nursing home these thoughts stopped, I couldn't hurt her anymore than what she was about to experience, and once this happened all these intrusive thoughts were still there but I know they meant nothing, because not one of them ever came true, it didn't stop them though.
Going back through not only this thought that is annoying the hell out of you, have any other thoughts ever come true, but been replaced by another one.
I would be really interested in your reply. Geoff.