I've suffered from Anxiety since my late teens. There having been periods while in therapy that I have had breaks, however its been pretty consistent. Allthough its effected my life allot, I was able to manage it, at least enough to have a normal life.
That was until 3 years ago next week, when I lost my 37 year old brother to a blood clot caused by a broken leg. He was my best friend and as for anyone who looses someone, It has been extremely hard. The problem now though is that my anxiety has multiplied and evolved into something that makes me feel like I'm going to die from a blood clot all the time and although I can manage it sometime allot of the time it gets the best of me. I have tried some therapy however nothing has really helped. I guess the reason I'm writing on here is not to feel alone, or even to get advice if anyone else has been through this. I'm so exhausted of not wanting to be alone (when I live alone in the country) and having to battle through the night telling myself I'm not dying and preventing myself from having a full blown panic attack.
Anything that can help would be appreciated. I'm putting out my feelers to hopefully find a way to get back to a normal life or even to hear from people feeling the same, so I don't feel so alone in this.
Thanks.
