A detached husband, grieving the loss of your mother and your best friend distancing herself...no wonder you are feeling lonely. I understand that emotional dependency aggravates the situation to the point of despair. Coping with the heartbreak of rejection is difficult for all of us. Dependency sure doesn't help.
You mention that medication has no affect. We are all different, so respond differently. It is essential that you keep your doctor informed. Unfortunately, it often takes several attempts before finding the med that will suit best. One type may not work out for you but another might.
Re emotional dependency, I know of a couple of books that have helped others will similar problems :
- "How to overcome emotional dependency" by Walter Riso
- "Emotional dependency : Run away from yourself" by Liliya May
Both are Kindle editions.
Those at the receiving end of this dependency often feel overwhelmed by it. They become scared by the intensity of emotions involved, so the distancing response is not uncommon. Which leaves you deprived of much needed support, closeness and understanding.
Well done for trying to get to the bottom of this dependency. A brave and wise decision. It is good to know that you are on a mental health plan. It will help you find the root cause of the issue and -step by step- regain some measure of control over runaway emotions.
I suggest that you visit the Relationship section of these forums. I'm sure there are others in similar situations who would like to share their stories and experiences.
Kind thoughts and best wishes.
