Going crazy

[Tbarker182]

Hi everyone,

I’ve never posted here before but I have been battling with anxiety for about 7 years now.

im currently in one of my ruts, what seemed to bring it on was taking antibiotics. I have panic attacks when I don’t feel normal and I was at work and all of a sudden felt nauseous and like everything was melting so I automatically started freaking out and every since then I’ve been getting worse, that was a week ago. I need to take antibiotics but I’m to scared it’s going to make me worse, I can’t even bring myself to take Panadol because I’m so scared anything I do is going to make my headspace worse right now. i Just has a week of work and tried to work today but I couldn’t do it I left early. I’m so physically sick because I have absolutely no appetite it just doesn’t feel normal to eat, so I’m dealing with constant nausea And dizziness, I’m also getting tingles all over my body. I keep going through phases of feeling like I can’t do it anymore and crying and then I calm down but I don’t feel normal when I calm down, it’s like it doesn’t feel good to be calm or I just feel absolutely nothing and it’s scaring the hell out of me because I’ve never felt like I feel nothing before!

Its hard to explain but right now I just feel absolutely numb like nothings real and I’m not freaking out at all it’s like I just don’t feel normal I don’t feel like I’m alive at all, it’s like if I stop thinking about it I then think oh I feel relaxed then I feel like my brain is drifting off to die if that makes sense? I’m so scared that this is it, this is the time I will need to be admitted into a psych ward.

im sorry if this doesn’t make any sense but I just need to know if this passes? Why is it so much worse this time then it’s been in the past why am I having all these new feelings or no feelings at all?

Thank you for anyone who responds.

[Betternow]

Hello Tbarker.

Your very articulate with words. Anxiety and panic are tough emotions to endure but the fact you could describe your feelings so accurately is a credit to you. I doubt you are a candidate for a psych ward.

You say you have been battling anxiety for seven years. Have you had a formal diagnosis? Have you undergone treatment? Keep the communication going and we’ll try and offer you the support to take the edge off your symptoms.

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi Tbarker182,

Welcome to the forums and thank you for sharing your experiences of anxiety with us.

Please know that you are absolutely not going crazy and certainly not a good candidate for the psych ward! Even though I can imagine that it would be very distressing, anxiety is a very normal and common experience.

It sounds like you've had anxiety for a while but the things that are happening now are a bit different and definitely much worse, but I can also see that you've kind of ended up in a cycle. When you had that first panic attack, you were on antibiotics - but even though that was probably a coincidence, now you've kind of associated pills with panic. The panic attack may have felt like it's come out of nowhere, so now you might be afraid that anything symptomatic could be the start of a new panic attack. You may have felt calm before your panic attack, so now being calm is unsettling like the calm before the storm. Does this make sense or resonate with you?

RT