First Post - Constant Anxiety

Blair2019 · ‎05-06-2019

I don't what to do anymore... Psychology and even medication barely helps. I have a constant fear of death, just generally. Not on how I am going to go, just of it. I don't want to go into too much detail as it is a REALLY strong trigger even just to write about it. I hate this feeling of constant anxiety; it consumes me. I just want to be happy, healthy and enjoying life. I always wonder what its like to be someone who doesn't experience anxiety and to be so joyous all of the time. I am so over this anxiety... I am now having panic attacks at work, at home... anywhere. The smallest triggers could be someone's birthday and then I begin to count how many I could have left. spending time with my little boy and know that he will be without me one day, or feeling selfish to bring another life into the world and they have to experience the same fear I have.

I am so completely over it and am ready to breakdown all of the time... I have supportive people around me and then others who say just get over it. When I had a level 10 panic attack and became dissociative my mother fobbed it off and didn't recognise it. I couldn't go in my room for days as I had my panic attack in there and I couldn't be in that space.

I need help. I need a cure. I feel desperate.

white knight · ‎05-06-2019

Hi, welcome

Like many things in life, a mix of remedies is best adopted.

In this case

Ensure the maximum care under professional mefical people
Environment changes
Short, medium and long term strategies
Acceptance that some anxiety will accompany you for a long time
Not expecting others to understand

Please read the first post of the following threads

Beyondblue Topic they just wont understand, why?

Beyondblue Topic what life's like at the end of the tunnel

Beyondblue Topic anxiety, how I eliminated it

Beyondblue Topic if all else fails be radical

Beyondblue Topic never ever give up

I hope you see more clearly after that read. We need to make huge efforts to make improvements.

Im living proof it works and am now enjoying life.

TonyWK