Hi there, I've made a thread on here before and it really helped. I've made progress since then but there's a new situation that is really bugging me. I've had moments when I feel like when things are going really well and my mind goes uptight like someone is twisting it tight like an elastic band. Like there's this impulse to go away from everyone and everything, to stop doing what I love to do and be with the people I care about and be on my own. And when I mean on my own,it ends up being me with my mind on standby, just not doing anything but walking around my house, wrapped up in my own thoughts all the time. Nothing I want to do gets done, i could sit and watch YouTube clips of my favorite shows because I don't know, I guess it boils down to the point that I can't bloody relax or get anything done. And by God, it scares me like I'm losing time in my life. I want to be doing things, to be at peace where I can be productive on my own and at the same be with the people I love to be with for long periods of time. Which is what I want, to be ALIVE!!!! But this "standby mode" of doing nothing and getting stuck in my anxious mindset feels as though it's pulling me down. An impulse that occurs over and over, I can't take it anymore, I want to it stop but I just don't know how!!!!!!!?????!!! Does anyone have any ideas how I can stop this please????!!!!!! 😞 😞 😞
