Hello everyone,
I am new to this forum.
I am a guy who is in his late 30's and has Asperger's syndrome. For almost my entire life I have been feeling very anxious. Most recently, I have been feeling nostalgic about my past. When I was younger, I have struggled to interact with my peers when I was at both primary and high school. Making friends was challenging for me.
There were a few times when the other students (most of them were girls) would offer to be my friends when I first started high school, but due to being too shy and having difficulty with communicating, I rejected them (which I now live to regret that decision). I also used to get bullied a lot and my mum had to pull me out of school, and then I had to be home schooled (which made me feel isolated and depressed). I wanted to return to school so I could be around the other kids and maybe I could even reconsider the friendship offers from those students who I have previously rejected.
But when I did return to school, the bullying got worse, so I had to go back to being home schooled again. I missed out on a lot of opportunities.
But now that I am in my late 30's, I have lost interest in my current life. I am now married and have two children. Right now, I am living in the past because I am not coping in the present day. I always wished that I did things differently in the past, so that my present would have been better. I am very nostalgic, and I wish I could go back in time and be a teenager again and fix up all the mistakes that I made in the past.
To make matters worse, I am also currently unemployed, and I have limited access to being able to get an internship or work placement anywhere despite that I have done some TAFE courses.
