Feel like I'm relapsing!

[green_s]

Hi there,

I guess I'm just writing here for a little bit of support. I have coped with anxiety for about a year now and struggle a lot with obsessing over worrying thoughts. These last few months though have been so much better and even though I still worry I haven't had that gross foggy and exhausted feeling that comes with it. But yesterday that feeling came back completely out of no where. I can't think of anything that has happened to trigger it and so as you can imagine I'm a bit scared because now the idea of it coming back for good is all I can think about!! I'm absolutely exhausted this morning and feel like I can't even get out of bed!

 Any suggestions on how to kick this because I know if I keep thinking worrying about it it will probably become a reality...

Thanks heaps 🙂

[Mal50]

Hello, I've found in my own experiences that fearing or expecting Anxiety disorder/Panic attacks nearly always brings them on. I try to divert my mind elsewhere.

[green_s]

Thankyou for replying! 🙂 Yeah I completely agree! I'm trying so hard to keep myself busy! I just hate the physical side of anxiety because it is so much harder to ignore than the thoughts!!

[geoff]

dear Green, welcome to the site.

Anxiety comes under the illness called depression, and when we have suffered from any type of depression, we are never over it, in that it stays with us for good, like I have overcome my long period of depression but that doesn't mean that I will never get it again, because I have had a few relapses, this can't be helped, and just as you have felt as though you have your anxiety return.

You mention the word 'obsessed over worrying thoughts', which makes me ask you if you suffer from OCD, as this is created by anxiety, and if this is so then you will always be on edge.

I also suffer from it and had it for 54 years, so yes I'm an old chap, so I have suffered with depression and anxiety for a good part of my life.

There is a great post by AGrace and it's called 'Why choose Mindfulness' which is something which maybe able to help you, so if you can't find it, then type in search bar either AGrace or the title of the post, and on this page there are suggestions which may help you.

I would like to hear back from you. Geoff.

[green_s]

Hi Geoff!

Thankyou for replying to me! I think because I am still very new to all of this I keep forgetting how much progress I have actually already made and that this is all still a journey... I'm not going to be magically cured! I've just been feeling a lot better lately without even really realising until it all hit me again yesterday and I remembered what I used to feel like!

I don't have OCD as such (no compulsive behaviours that go with my thinking!) just consistent worry cycles that I can find really hard to break! It seems like I will think about one particular thing for weeks on end and then suddenly out of no where it stops and swaps to something new. None of them are very logical either haha. Usually I function pretty well and can shove those thoughts aside, but when I get the physical symptoms of anxiety (ringing ears, fatigue, upset stomach) I find it all so much harder to ignore and that's when I downward spiral a bit!!

Thank you for your suggestion! I have heard about mindfulness before and tried it a few times. I just find it really hard to stick to! But will definitely see if I can give it another go 🙂

Thanks again!

[mjncoursecar]

Hi green_s

i understand what you're going through  I suffer from an anxiety disorder and a panic disorder. Unfortunately, relapsing is part of the process of learning how to manage it. You will have good days and then out of nowhere, you will have some shocking days. I have found that reality checking some of the weird thoughts helps, as long as you keep doing it. Eventually you're brain will get better at filtering them out.

Let us know how everything is going.