Hi Mister M,
I used to get very self-conscious in public too. Thankfully, I no longer find this a challenge. What I have learned is that other people don't pay nearly as much attention to what you do, as you think they do. Realising this helped me. My Mum would say this to me in my teen years, and it took me quite some time to internalise it and realise its truth. I don't think ordering a Beatles DVD is embarrassing, and I can almost guarantee that no one within earshot would think anything negative about you for this 🙂
Have you been diagnosed with social anxiety? You could see your GP for a referral to a psychologist or counsellor if you want more help. Having a close circle of friends is a great buffer against anxiety. If you are an honest, kind and loyal person (which I'm thinking you are), there will be others who'll enjoy your company and respect you, even if you do get anxious. I have had anxieties and random habits throughout my childhood and teen years, and even now, and I have always had at least a few friends. This is because I acted like myself, and was kind and caring.
I know some people who have very dorky interests, and this does not define them. Some people might read comic books or be into anime, but be sporty at the same time. There are so many quirky people out there, and many quirky interests and activities. For example, ComicCon is very popular, even though this could be considered "nerdy" by some.
I hope something I said has been helpful 🙂
Best wishes,
SM
