Hi
So a few days ago me and my partner got a new puppy and since the moment we took our puppy home iv been having waves of have we made the right decision. I'm dealing with some health problems of my own as well as really bad anxiety which sometimes I spend all day in bed and do want to do anything. The first night we had our puppy it was hard but she slept through the night. The next day I thought she was sick because she wasn't eating or drinking and then my anxiety kicked in worrying that I'd taken a sick puppy home. So I texted the breeder saying I'd changed my mind and could she take the puppy back and she said yes. Then I went and took the puppy to visit my family and they got the puppy to eat and turned out i over reacted she was fine. So i told the breeder we were keeping the puppy. I wasn't ok i was in a huge anxiety mess. But my family convinced me that I should keep her. We have a 7 year old dog who resource guards and my partner gets anxiety about a fight happening because something happened a few years ago with a dog we had but paced away. Anyway after I came home from seeing my parents I felt so much better about having a puppy. But that night I ended up not feeling well and the next day all I wanted to do was stay in bed. I managed to get up to feed the puppy and take both dogs to the toilet but then I went back to bed. And I feel like a terrible dog owner because I haven't trained the puppy at all. Because that feels to difficult. Im not even feeding my self during the day because it feels to hard. The puppy sleeps in a travel fabric crate in between me and my partner. The puppy has a grate in our spare bathroom that has a baby gate on but anytime the puppy isn't with us she will cry and whine and she won't stop no matter if you give her time or if you tell her no even if she can see you she just wants to be constantly on you like Velcro. Anyway since we have had this puppy which has only been a few days and the puppy is 8 weeks 9 this week I haven't started training her I know I should but its the last thing I want to do. And getting a dog trainer isn't an option. And I can't take the puppy to puppy classes because of my anxiety. My partner works long hours and does day and night shift so he can't help much. My family have there own stuff going and and can't help. And I haven't told my partners family about this puppy but they wouldn't be able to help. Then yesterday I changed my mind again after I'd already changed it twice the first full day we had her. And now iv told the breeder can they find her a new home. I feel bad because all day she's in her crate next to me other then when I take her to the toilet and feed her. Then when my partner gets home he takes her out and she runs around. In the mornings when I take her to the toilet and after I feed her she does run around with my other dog playing till i go back to bed. I can't let her run around the house when i'm in bed because as I said before my older dog resource guards toys and food. So even if the puppy has its own toy my other dog will take it off the puppy and if the puppy tries to get it back my older dog will growl and snarl and show teeth. Please no one say that I should of worked on this before I got another dog because I know that it's an issue but my older dog has done it since they were a puppy. They are food obsessed and ball obsessed. Iv tried to train them to not resource guard but I didn't have any luck.
My main feeling is am I making the right decision but letting our puppy go to another home? Am I a terrible dog owner because i'm struggling to train her and get up each day? Our puppy is a lovely dog but very clingy and is very dependent unlike our other dog who likes attention but is also happy to just be on there own. Every time I look at our puppy's face I feel sadness and regret about getting them and also saying can the breeder take the puppy back. But when the puppy and my older dog play its so sweet and I love to see it and my puppy is come up to me for pats and is sleeping on me and I just don't want to really regret anything but I just feel like i'm going to give it a terrible life if I keep the puppy. I don't know how long this feeling is going to last of me wanting to stay in bed everyday. I can't keep changing my mind.
