Can't stay and elaborate, but I felt compelled to point this out, because it's something I see
so often:
"Others may fully recover and I see myself getting better than I am now but will never be the person I was."
People say that a lot, and I honestly don't think that's always as bad as they seem to think.
Haruki Murakami has a nice quote:
“Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts. Over and over you play this out, like some ominous dance with death just before dawn. Why? Because this storm isn't something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you. This storm is you. Somethinginside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn't get in, and walk through it, step by step.
And once the storm is over you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm's all about.”
"Different" doesn't mean worse, it just means different.
It can be hard to remember that when you're still in that storm, desperately trying to find a way out. But if you emerge, you will be more experienced. You will grow as a person. You might even find that you can bring yourself to not hate the new you. Hell, you might even come to like yourself a little. That you could respect the you who weathered the storm, who withstood all its fury and came out the other side, battered, weary, even broken. But also wiser, because when you face the storm, you face the worst your brain can offer. Once you've beaten that, there's little to be afraid of again.
But all that rests upon leaving the storm.
