Do you ever feel worthless?

[Aggy]

I have always felt that I was a good person with decent morals and values.

Even after many years of evidence showing I am useless and dysfunctional, Even my mum told me my life is a complete waste. I have always pushed on believing they were all wrong.

You know what? It's taken me this long to figure out all those people couldn't be wrong. I am worthless.

They were right and now I know I want to just keep out of everyones way. If my agoraphobia and I just stay home, I cannot be hurt in anyway any more. I won't upset anybody. I am safe here and I like it like that.

I have my first Psychiatrist appointment in two days.  I am feeling like not going. He's wasting his time on me.

I'm better off to stay here and rot. Society can do just fine without me. 

He should try and help someone worth helping, not some one like me that's worthless.

Has anyone felt like this before?

-Aggy.

[angelite]

Hi Aggy

Sorry I haven't posted sooner but had a bit of a detour myself. Between the cat team and another welfare check from the police nothing much is new. Tried another psychiatrist but no luck.

Enough about me , doesn't seem that you have improved either. How did you go with the smaller 10 bed unit.

Have you had any progress with work.

Are you still in the same house.

Remember Aggy you are not your thoughts its just this stupid illness.

I'm still thinking of you sorry not up to writing much I will try again on a better day. I'm still fighting, exhausted.

I wish things would improve for you Aggy.

Karen

[Aggy]

Hello.

Hope you are well Karen, and others.

Not doing to well here. Just about hit rock bottom with financial problems about to sink my ship! I will work it out. To every problem there must be some form of solution.

With the current state of my mental health it's not helping with friends also falling apart around me. Now I find myself trying to help others so much, I have neglected my own recovery. Trying to prevent others from what I have been through as I see the same symptoms arise in them is frustrating.  

Worrying about those that refuse to have self respect is pointless, but still heartbreaking at times.

I have asked my G.P to up my dosage of anti-depressants but he says no. I am up against it, but keeping busy at home is best right now, until my new notice to vacate in 14 days is up. I wont want to leave the home I lived in for fifteen years.

One hurdle after another but, that's life I suppose.

-Aggy.

[Pounce]

I can relate. I feel pretty worthless right now

[Aggy]

Hi Pounce.

Thanks for stopping in, I hope you are well.

I have some advice; don't tell people around you of your feelings of worthless and useless etc.

They will walk all over you and take advantage of you any way they can.

Please take care and feel free to let me know why you feel so worthless. You are in the right place and everyone here is helpful. Don't Stop asking questions about how you feel until you get the answers you need.

-Aggy.