Dear sOm3thing
Hello and welcome to the forum. I'm sorry to hear you have depression and I hope it's not very bad. Anxiety often accompanies depression and sometimes it's a bit difficult to tell which is which as the symptoms can be alike.
Do you see a mental health professional such as a psychologist? If so I suggest you ask this person who is far better qualified than me. Who diagnosed your depression? Often this is your GP and I suggest you check with the GP.
Not being a doctor it is difficult to give you a definite answer as I may well be wrong. However you do sound anxious. Panic attacks can happen to someone who is anxious and/or has depression and it sounds a bit like a panic attack when you struggle for breath even if that part does not last long. In general panic attacks do n ot last more than 20 minutes though the after effects may last longer.
I suggest you read the information available on beyondblue. You can find this under The Facts tab at the top of the page and can download any of the fact sheets. If you want the booklets you can request these from BB and they will be sent free of charge.
Crying with frustration is a normal reaction and I know I have done this on many occasions. Your breathing has not returned to normal if you are still taking short, quick breaths which appears to indicate the panic attack or the after effects are still happening. Again this is something to discuss with your mental health person. A face to face situation is better to get a good answer to your questions. I hope you will follow up with this.
You are very welcome to continue posting here. There are many people in similar situations to you and it's helpful to talk about your common experiences and know you are not the only one who feels this way.
Mary
