I'm 16 female and at the start of this year the thought had never crossed my mind, but after my Mum jokingly said that she's always thought i'm a bit ADHD, it got me thinking. At the time i had never been exposed to ADHD, i had no idea what i might mean to have it, so naturally i got curious and looked into it. On every online test i've taken i have received results such as 'strong indications of ADHD', and looking back I'm surprised that i never realised that something might be wrong earlier. I constantly zone out during conversations, i lose items WAY to easily, i constantly fidget in class, and don't even get me started on starting and completing activities. I've always felt different than my siblings, both are older than me and have been perfectly fine in school, nothing seemed to affect them as i have been affected. I noticed that the subjects i enjoyed i would fixate on so much more than anything else, especially art. I've gone whole days not eating or drinking as i am too fixated on a project, but with other subjects (especially math) i try really hard to focus and understand what is happening, but i end up completely zoning out and missing details or i just can't focus on doing the questions. After nearly a year of suspecting that i might have ADHD i asked my mum not once, but twice if we could get me tested. She said it was too expensive (and truthfully, it is) and that it's probably not worth it as, even if i had it, as the medication is not always good and there is no real gain from knowing that you have it as it wouldn't really change anything. As much as i respect and love my mum i feel that she is wrong in this decision. I have no knowledge on what treatments there even are for ADHD, but i suspect that by knowing i can get needed support and even if it doesn't at least i know that these 'symptoms' are not just me being lazy (I'm plagued by this thought). I told my sister about wanting to get an ADHD test as well, but she said the same things and also said that if i did i would probably use it as an excuse for some things. These discussions have shut down any confidence i have in talking to anyone about this, especially in person, thus why I am writing this. I don't know where to go from here. I'm worried that even if i get tested i won't end up having ADHD and then i'll just be embarrassed for having these symptoms and not having ADHD. Honestly, i need advise on what to do.
