Continuous loneliness

Rusty

Well things have been going great with anxiety and depression especially with help from counseling.
However I still have a continuing sense of loneliness and lack of connection even when I’m around people and doing things I enjoy like volunteering.
It makes me feel sad and somewhat worthless that I don’t have anyone to share the journey with, both the good and bad.

Illbeok

Hi Rusty,

I’m so happy to hear that things have been working out well for you lately! I think feeling lonely even when you're around people is something many of us experience. I completely relate—for me, it usually happens when I feel like connections are a bit superficial rather than deep and meaningful.

While I’m still figuring out how to solve that myself, I’d love to hear about your recent success. If you're open to sharing, what worked best for you in overcoming your anxiety and depression? What seemed to be particularly effective?

Hope118

Can absolutely relate to this 😞

Feeling so drained and wiped out. Time and time again I’ve had to fight, I’m exhausted. No one to share the journey with. It’s very lonely. These past few days in particular I’m feeling defeated and super anxious. Tummy in knots, headaches, no appetite and sleeping very badly. It doesn’t matter what I do, it feels as if bad luck & misfortune always seems to find me. And the anxiety always comes back with a vengeance. Even after so much therapy, meditation and mindfulness all these years 😞

melodica

Hello Hope118 and Rusty,

I hear the exhaustion in your words. The constant fight to advocate for yourself and exist is so draining. Navigating my own journey often leaves me with that exact bone deep weariness. The loneliness of carrying that invisible weight without someone to share the load can feel incredibly heavy.

It is completely understandable that your body is holding all this tension right now. I know those stomach knots and sleepless nights intimately. Please know that the anxiety returning does not mean your years of therapy or mindfulness have failed. Sometimes our nervous systems can become overwhelmed by the sheer friction of life, and all the tools in the world cannot override a physical response to burnout.

You are not alone in feeling this way. I am sitting with you in this difficult space tonight. Please be as gentle with yourself as possible while your body weathers this storm.

I am here if you need to write again, and if you feel like you can't cope, there's also the Beyond Blue chat service, which operates whenever you need it.
Take care of yourself, and hope you will let us know how you are at some point soon.

Hope118

Hi melodica,

Thank you for your kind and reassurance response. Such words of encouragement are comforting and even just knowing others feel and experience the same feels that little bit less lonely. Thank you. Grateful for this community 🙏

Rusty

Hi Melodica

Thanks for your reply. In some way it does help to know I’m not alone. However I’m at a point where I’m beginning to think there is no point to put in all the effort. I’m just so lonely with no one to turn to. I know I should be kind and gentle to myself but I have absolutely no idea how to do that. At the moment all I feel I can do is struggle on.