I’m as used to anxiety as I guess you can get. When I diagnosed I realised that most of my life I’ve had anxiety, even as a child.
My GAD wanes which is a lovely respite, but right now it’s back.
Along with the general 2020 goings on, in August some things in my own life set me off and I haven’t been able to pull myself out.
last time I was unwell like this my anxiety manifested as health anxiety in addition to my “regular” anxiety.
This time I was worried about my skin and was super proud that I went for a mole check (all clear). Now, my focus has turned to my eyes.
Ive finally built up the courage to book a check up with my optometrist tomorrow.
im far sighted and have astigmatism in one eye.
now I’ve convinced myself that tomorrow I’m going to be diagnosed with some horrible eye disease. It’s probably just aging and a bit of eye strain, that’s what my logical brain says, but I can’t get past it.
I feel so silly that I get so worked up, that I fixate on issues like this. Who on earth is scared of the optometrist!
Ive read about others with health anxiety and they seem to have any test possible to find what’s going on, but I’m terrified to find something.
