Anxiety, panic, and just coping.

[QldMouse]

Hi,

I know I'm not alone by any means (Thank you Beyond Blue) but somehow that knowledge does not help.

Trust me I've read a lot, been to a lot of therapy, made a lot of progress. But.

That awful feeling of panic, then stupidity sets in, irrational behaviour kicks into high gear, breath gets difficult, speech becomes impossible, and then the chest pain and headaches set in. In spite of wishing for the ground to open up and swallow me, it does not. I have to deal with my issues.

In spite of a desperate need to connect with people I drive them away, and run away myself. I am so tired of being an anxiety riddled social lepper. And I have so tried. Now out of visits on my mental health plan, and can't afford the therapy I need, what do people do?

Thank you all.

PS. to White Rose you lovely contributor, it is so nice to see your avatar but so sad to hear your news. I am thinking of you and so hope you recover and feel better very soon.

[White_Rose]

Hello Mouse

Just saw your post and read mine. Whoops! My post is so sorry for myself I wonder everyone has not run away. Sorry to hear about your 'flu. Definitely not nice. I think this was where I started to go downhill. Not that I was dreadfully ill with the 'flu but it has really knocked me for six and I am still struggling. So for several weeks I have been trying to cope with a lot of pain. GP gave me pain killers but I am reluctant to take them. On the other hand I am even more reluctant to have this pain. Sigh.

Well I have stopped holding my breath about the brain unfuzzing. It feels the same all the time, a blank smothering of fog. Perhaps I will paint a picture of it. Do you think it will go away then? Not sleeping as well as I have been used to. Looks like I need a new motor on my garage roller door. I have become so accustomed to it opening with the touch of a button that I feel quite hard done by. Had a small accident in the car and it is now being repaired. Someone tried to use my credit card details and the bank stopped the account. Gave me a new credit card. I am wondering if I should give up some of my activities because I am so constantly tired.

How is the walking going? While you have the 'flu I expect you do not feel like walking. The weather is getting warmer so maybe you will feel like walking again soon. I know the weather is warming up because I am down to wearing two jumpers in the house. I have never felt so cold as I have this winter. At this rate I will have to return to the UK to get warm.

I'm taking the younger grandchildren to the Arts Theatre to see James and the Giant Peach. Front row of the balcony. I always got seats there when I took the (now) older grandchildren. It is really the best spot to see the action.

Now if I could only get rid of this wretched pain life would look so much better.

Please look after yourself.

Mary

[Doolhof]

Dear Mary and Mouse and all reading,

Sending you all warm greetings on this frosty morning. It is zero degrees here right now! I have just been out to hose the ice off the windscreen of my husband's work van. Dawn is arriving earlier these days which is wonderful until daylight savings hits us.

I am so sorry Mouse and Mary to read you are both feeling unwell. If I could I would come over with hot chicken noodle soup, have a cheery chat and make cups of tea. I could probably find a nice apron from the Op Shop to wear as well.

Today I am heading into the Aged care facility for my volunteer day. I can find my way around there now. The first couple of weeks I was lost quite often!

Fuzzy brains are not pleasant are they Mary? Mine was very confused when I had chronic fatigue. I couldn't get my words out right and forgot where I was supposed to be going. Even making a coffee in the morning was impossible with so many steps to take! Milk does not go in the electric kettle!

This morning I have options, go for a walk, do some stretches or save my energy for a little gardening before I go out. As it is so cold, I will have to rug up.

Wish I had a funny joke to share with you, only I forget them! Ha. Ha.

Cheers to yo both from Dools