anxiety/over thinking

[Guest_10179]

life been getting me down lately, I was going very good with my Anxiety with exercising and kick boxing finely losing weight after putting in on from the Anxiety Meds and getting my anxiety under control for the first time in years and then I got told I can get an eye operation to replace my lens for early cataract instead of waiting 5 to 10 years before it gets worst, so I don't need glasses no more for distance. which at the time I was told I be all good after 10 days, after the operation was told I need 4 weeks with no lifting, and it can take up to a year for my brain to get use to my new lens gone from seeing everything with glasses now i need to put glassed on every time I need to read someone everything just out of place and the halos at night I'm only 43 and don't want to life with this for the rest of my life , it's been a very long 5 weeks so far and I'm slowly going down the rabbit hole which I have been always able to get myself out of but this time it's so hard, I made the worst decision of my life. I just can't thinking about trying to chance the pass to go back to normal. it just over and over in my head. I hate chance so I don't why I made this decision I always do this because I'm so worried about people judging me about my glasses and always hated them since I started to wear them 10 years ago. 

[Sophie_M]

Hey there,

Thank you for posting here and for sharing so candidly what you are experiencing right now. It sounds like this has been a very unexpected challenge that has been thrown your way and it is completely understandable to be navigating feelings of anxiety, concern, and regret.

It sounds like you are holding a lot of guilt and regret, which are both really heavy feelings. We hope there is a part of you that can be gentle with yourself and trust that you truly made the best decision that you could at the time with all of the information you were given.

Is there anyone in your life supporting you through this? It is a lot to be sitting with by yourself. It may be worthwhile bringing this up with a GP or trusted health professional who can offer some guidance. If you’d like to reach out to us , we’re on 1300 22 4636, or you can use our webchat here: https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/    

Thank you again for sharing here. We hope that you can feel welcomed into this community – we are all here sitting with you as you navigate this.

Kind regards
Sophie M