So I have posted here for my feelings of depression and my alcohol use and move this thread if you think it belongs elsewhere, but I had a serious incident that really scared me and made me finally realise that its ok to ask for help and get some. I was so desperate and totally convinced I was going to die. I tried lying down but my heart was pounding and seemed to stop when I lay down then my breathing would slow and I was sure i was dying. I thought i was having a stroke or a heart attack. The feelings of panic were so strong and scary. I ended up calling a friend and made it to a doctor. He gave me some pills which almost immdiately took the worst of the symptoms away. The shaking and sweating and pounding heart. It left the craving emptiness in my guts though. I couldnt seem to relieve it with anything at all. In the back of my mind I think I was craving a drink as I recently came off a "bender" maybe that's what triggered this whole thing. I resisted and stuck with the meds only and I feel tired but OK today and actually able to work. Going to see my own GP when I get back to finally come clean about the whole picture. It feels OK to let people in to help. Thanks for listening. MaryG
